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Today’s DIG Diary: We Are Answering the Call

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notable. Full Strawberry Moon, Partial Lunar Eclipse, Venus in Transit
Laurie Cabot Magic Whisper.  Today, Monday, June 4: Wear White. Do NO majick. Meditate, light a white candle. Tomorrow, Tuesday, June 5: Wear Brown. You will have material ambition. That can be good.
DIG whisper. choices, choices, choices: aim high. take care of YOU, rising up, full evolution
song. ”love in a hopeless place,” rihanna


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Rihanna - We Found Love (LYRICS)Rihanna - We Found Love (LYRICS)

 

DOITGIRL. I’ve actually come to honor and pay deep attention to what happens when the situation or  a person says “No,” because that’s when my heart responds, that’s when my heart follows up with its own decision, either it cries out for what it wants or surrenders- but  casts its vote, it doesn’t float sleepily along. It feels a bit like how we have to witness injustice before we protest it. Sometimes we have to be told “No,” before our heart says “Yes,” before it makes some noise and rises to fight. Sometimes something has to be taken away from us, or threatened to be, for us to realize how much we want it. I like to know what I want, and when I don’t know, like how I felt all of May, I feel like a lost tired ship, directionless and disoriented.  I try my best to “live in the questions” and embrace the transitions (thank you Sherry) but I still feel a bit lost and hopeless, like drifting in fog- I prefer to be guided by my strong desires- it makes me feel so very alive. My desires shine like lighthouses on distant but  somehow deeply familiar shores, guiding me home. I’m grateful that under the clarity of the Full Moon I’m seeing what I want and I’m owning my desires and directions. And I’m making decisions (“the more you love your decisions the less you will need others to”). A lot of women felt like they’d fallen out of their power in the last few weeks of May, I think that’s because doors were shutting for them and things seemingly “ending,” in order to find doors that opened to deeper truths, higher callings, and more abundance. It was a time of hallways and transition. But why did the lessons, why do the lessons- have to be so hard? Otherwise we wouldn’t pay attention, or see the right road (or see that we wre on the wrong one). If it didn’t hurt, we wouldn’t look up and ask why, how, when, where, who. And it’s so important we ask the big questions of ourselves and others and it’s so important we pay attention and break out of our old molds and habits Now. Those questions get us our of our patterns. Asking questions opens doors. The fall leads to the information/lesson which leads to the evolution. Paying attention to our lives, conscious steps, conscious breaths, conscious thought- is so important. Pay attention, be amazed. The Divine is in the details. Sometimes I will get messages that won’t be relevant in my life until weeks or months later, and I feel this happens so the message has time to embed in my core- when the hour is upon me, I will handle it with grace. Th knowldge becomes wisdom. No lesson is for nothing. There will be a time and a place for the lessons to be applied, and you will know. We are being given, we have, all the answers we need. There is a lot of information coming through for me, some of my sisters are absolutely being flooded with Divine downloads, so if you’re experiencing this too—  know it’s a lot right now but that’s the ebb and flow, and right now it’s high tide. The lessons and the love are heightened under this Full Moon, our greatest mirror and amplifier (of shadows and light). The more we understand the Venus transit (with Venus eclipsing the Sun) the more we see the governance of Divine Consciousness/Divine Love at work (“Venus eclipsing the Sun represents an awakening of the Divine Feminine energies in our world”). I feel the union of the deep, gooey love of Venus meeting the sobering, mothering love of the Full Moon. It’s a divinely feminine time as the Goddess of Love eclipses the Solar Power of the Sun. As a Lunar “receiver”, I’m actually “doing” far more than usual in this conjunct- see if you are opening new doors within yourself as well. It’s go time, choice time, and change time. With my aims true, I know I can let go and trust. At this time, Love, Feminity, Creativity and Divinity rule. We are asking and receiving, giving and growing. We are bowing to the lesson, forgiving, letting go, healing, rising, and always choosing love. We are becoming. We have let go of the old shore.  We are in the flow. We are answering the Call, and our answer is “Yes, Yes, Yes.”


Full Moon Blessings. <3 Tonight Leave Jewelry that you want blessed by the Full Moon Energy out over night.  Ask for What You Want from the Moon. Love, Healing, Money, Peace? Also: This Eclipse is a great time to ask for relief from your suffering: Kneel, put your hands on Mother Earth earth and offer what you want taken and healed. 

xoxo  

WORDS.

"The Call," 

 

by Oriah Mountain Dreamer * Toronto, Canada

 

I have heard it all my life, 

A voice calling a name I recognized as my own.

Sometimes it comes as a soft-bellied whisper.
Sometimes it holds an edge of urgency.
But always it says: Wake up, my love. You are walking asleep.
There’s no safety in that!
Remember what you are, and let a deeper knowing
color the shape of your humanness.
There is nowhere to go. What you are looking for is right here.
Open the fist clenched in wanting and see what you already hold in your hand.
There is no waiting for something to happen,
no point in the future to get to.
All you have ever longed for is here in this moment, right now.
You are wearing yourself out with all this searching.
Come home and rest.
How much longer can you live like this?
Your hungry spirit is gaunt, your heart stumbles. All this trying.
Give it up!
Let yourself be one of the God-mad,
faithful only to the Beauty you are.
Let the Lover pull you to your feet and hold you close,
dancing even when fear urges you to sit this one out.
Remember, there is one word you are here to say with your whole being.
When it finds you, give your life to it. Don’t be tight-lipped and stingy.
Spend yourself completely on the saying,
Be one word in this great love poem we are writing together.


 

 

STARS. 

 

"There is much more activity happening within our cosmos today, which of course, causes much activity to happen to us here on earth. As above, So below. You have have already experienced the vibrations that have been slowly transmitting through our atmosphere in the last week or two. More sensitive and creative types have the potential of feeling the energetic waves coming in much earlier. While we can honor and celebrate the celestial events that occur today, at the same time, some of us may experience a great sigh of of relief as this great shove from the heavens, somewhat similar to when a storm finally breaks. The Full Moon that happens today signifies a manifestation that is in full bloom. What we have been investing our time and energy into, develops into the truth of the matter and releases in its best way known, whether it words, actions, or signs.

With the Full Ecliptic Moon in fiery Sagittarius, our emotions and their connected behaviors are fueled to pop and explode. Okay, it’s a gross example, but I am fond of the extreme lol. But it’s like watching to see what direction a pimple is going to take. We know that the pressure and contents that are being ‘silently withheld’ will eventually splat. When and where, will be up to us, or left at the hands of the universe. How you will react, is what matters most. In Sagittarius, we are bound to get the truth that we hunger for. We will usually know what we have to do to make things right, and we also know when to walk away when the situations/individuals prove to be unresponsive to the knowledge provided in reality and wisdom.

So in regards to what will explode, could it be frustration from not being heard? Absolutely, especially with a square to angry Mars square Venus retrograde. We want what we want. But by choosing the higher road, we can communicate and listen, rather than react, for it is here where we receive much information to help us find true direction. With today’s Lunar Eclipse, we can see the consequences of our actions (or lack of them), majorly released and magnified immensely for over the next three to six months. Whether we like the change or not, it is for our own growth.

 

"The world is won by those who let it go." ~Zen Proverb

Neptune, the planet of divinity, will retrograde today near dinner. What we have been dreaming, imagining, and helping others with, goes on pause. Until November, we shall save our compassion, prayers, and emotions for ourselves. This is our moment of healing the self. Creations of artistic pursuits take on a different meaning for us as we reach within to love and reconnect with our own soul. Without strong grounding, we need to be careful as to not deceive ourselves during the Neptune retrograde. Unnecessary confusion can lead us to toward escapism, suffering, codependency, along with addictions to our favorite poisons. This is our own personal journey within, to learn,understand, to relate and rediscover our true inner source. ”People change and forget to tell each other”. Lillian Hellman. Daily Tarot: Eight of Cups, Six of Cups: We’re ready to come home.” Suzi Cavallo Dronzek. Starcana. 

 

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MOON.



 

CATHY PAGANO on the Sagittarius Lunar Eclipse, June 4, 2012

  

Gemini, the sign of the Twins, exemplifies how the Mind perceives the world as a play of opposites: light and dark, man and woman, left and right, good and bad, spirit and matter, life and death, yin and yang.  Tao says that these opposites contain a spark of each other.   What appears to be separate is really related.  The best way to understand an opposition is to see that each side complements and balances the other side to create a greater whole.

The full Moon is an opposition between the Sun and the Moon, a moment in their cosmic circle dance when they face each other fully.  It’s interesting that we read the result of that dance on the face of the feminine Moon rather than the masculine Sun.  The Moon records what the Sun’s been up to.  The Moon releases what’s unconscious in the psyche.  The Moon draws our eyes and opens our imaginations to what could be.  Thanks to the life-giving light of the Sun.   

2 signs and the 6 pairs of signs create a dynamic that keeps them on their toes.

 

Sagittarius Lunar Eclipse

  

Monday’s Sagittarius full Moon is a partial lunar eclipse, with the Earth lining up between the Sun and the Moon so that the Earth block’s the Sun’s light from fully reaching the Moon.   Since planets do have energetic connections, during a lunar eclipse the Earth cuts the energy between Sun and Moon, dissolving the energetic structures on Earth and within us.  Lunar eclipses open a portal through which we can release old complexes, habits, ideas, beliefs and wounds that no longer serve our life.  When the Earth moves out of orbit between them, new energetic lines snap into place.  We can change what those connections are by how we change our own energies.

This is a great time to do ritual.  Since for many of us the eclipse occurs during the early morning hours, you can do a ritual Sunday evening and create a psychic container to hold what needs releasing until the eclipse happens.  If you ritualize this release, make sure you send what you’re releasing out to Pluto to regenerate, or down into the Earth to compost, or to the Sun to burn.

For this Gemini/Sagittarius full Moon eclipse, release old categories of perception, old prejudices and old dogmas.  While the light of ego-consciousness is blocked during the eclipse, you might remember some beautiful dream or fantasy you loved as a kid, some belief in the grace and goodness of Spirit that you haven’t felt for a while.  Why not take that image out of the closet and dust it off?  Maybe it’s something you really wanted to believe in, but were told you couldn’t.  Who says?  Or perhaps you just lost faith.  Why?

Who gets to say what’s real?  Science is still debating that question so for now, open your mind and look at the unseen real aspects of life.  Who says we’re not connected, or that we can’t do magic, or that we can’t trust Love?  Who really believes that we are sinners if we don’t believe in the “correct” version of God?  The Spirit of Life created us, so It probably wants us to find as many ways back to It as there are life-forms.  The best way to worship Spirit is to live fully and creatively, kindly and compassionately, freely and openly.

The tension of opposites in Gemini/Sagittarius is one between reason and faith, intellect and intuition, the lower Mind and the Higher Mind.  Gemini wants to articulate exactly what makes one thing different or similar to another.  Gemini is the master communicator who can use language to open up people’s minds and hearts.  Sagittarius is the ultimate believer, knowing right from wrong and piercing through to the truth of the matter, a trait which Gemini isn’t interested in.  Gemini likes the play of the Mind while Sagittarius wants to focus the Mind on the goal.

This lunar eclipse offer us a great opportunity to see what strange and distorted beliefs we’ve ingested from patriarchy that are strangling our lives.   Sagittarius is the container for our belief systems.  Everybody has to believe something about life, religion or no religion.  There are cosmic laws that give rise to life and that’s where our beliefs can take root and give us strength. Whether we see those laws operating as a Goddess or as a God, as mathematical laws or magical correspondences, we need to believe that we are part of the whole, that we hold meaning.  Sagittarius anchors us to our beliefs so we don’t get lost in the inundation of information that Gemini can spew out.  Sag points to information that is useful to us.

If we can unite the energies so they work together, we can engage in the deepest form of understanding and communication - articulating what is rather than what I think it is. Once we get rid of old ways of understanding our world, our categories, we can once again be open to the life around us in new and intriguing ways.  We might listen to our intuition which tells us that perhaps we should tie our laces before walking downstairs in the dark - instead of disregarding it and taking a tumble.   Or take the opportunity to speak with the stranger on the street rather than turn fearfully away. 

Change your Beliefs and Open your Mind!

 

Sagittarius Full Moon

  

The full Moon occurs on Monday June 4th at 4:12am PDT/ 7:12am EDT/ 11:12am GMT.  It comes a day and a half before Venus transits the Sun.  So be prepared for powerful energies this week.

Venus is the star player in this week’s lunar eclipse.  While the Sun is in Mercury-ruled Gemini and the Moon is in Jupiter-ruled Sagittarius, Venus bestows her favors on both sides of the celestial scale.  Venus is conjunct both Mercury and the Gemini Sun, softening its harsh glare with her golden laughter and sensual arts.  Jupiter, the ruler of the Sagittarius Moon, is finishing his stay in Venus-ruled Taurus, so he is beholding to her for her hospitality.   

It seems to me that Venus is calling the shots, which means keep your hearts open and follow Her lead.  Venus might just say to Jupiter, “Before you leave my domain (on June 11), when are you going to respect my wisdom and allow Me my proper power in life?” Venus might say to the Sun, “Allow me the respect to make my own decisions about my body and my life!”     

  

 Both Mercury and Venus trine Saturn in Libra, another Venus-ruled sign, opening up lines of communication about partnering and justice.  With the eclipse occurring in a fire/air pairing, our Minds will be attuned to higher justice and truth.  Venus can help you get across your ideas in a pleasing manner.  Why start trouble when you can smooth things over with a collaborative approach?

Both this full Moon eclipse and Venus square Mars in Virgo and Chiron in Pisces, forming a mutable grand cross.  It’s once again all about the Mind and how we use it.  Mars in Virgo can come up with blueprints to heal the world’s suffering (Chiron in Pisces), if we open our minds and hearts to a loving standpoint.  The truth is, we can fix our world’s problems if we let go of the old patriarchal paradigm (yeah! the first Pluto/Uranus square is on June 24th) and look at our problems through Venus’ lens of Love, Wisdom and Cooperation. 

The Sabian symbol for the Sun at 15*Gemini is: Two Dutch children talking to each other, exchanging their knowledge.  We need to be able to discuss our new-found perceptions and experiences with each other, in an open and child-like way.  We can see our lives in a new way, understand life from different perspectives, and feel free to follow wherever our imaginations take us. 

The Sabian symbol for the Moon at 15* Sagittarius is: The ground hog looking for its shadow on Ground Hog’s Day, February 2nd.  February 2nd is one of the gateways of the Wheel of the Year, called Imbolc or Candlemas, when the ground hog or snake comes out of the ground to see if the Sun’s light is growing.  It is a time to look to the future and anticipate future prospects.  But as in the wonderful movie, Ground Hog’s Day, it will take a lot of work to release our old habits and ways of seeing the world and get on with the business of creating a good life.   Coupled with the Sun’s symbol, this full Moon energizes new ways of knowing and perceiving.

The Sabian symbol for Venus at 17*Gemini is: The head of a robust youth changes to that of a mature thinker.  This symbol speaks to the change in our mental attitude once we understand the heart’s messages and translate them into intelligent action.

When Venus and Mars square each other, the friction between love and desire brings about positive action if we stay awake and aware.  The Sabian symbol for Mars at 17*Virgo is: A volcanic eruption!  The image speaks for itself.  All that repressed passion wants to manifest something new.  Venus can help Mars use that explosive energy for life in constructive ways.

 

Up-coming Cosmic Events 

June 4 - Neptune turns retrograde 10 hours after the eclipse, until November 10.  Neptune dissolves barriers and attunes us to higher consciousness. Give yourself some meditation time today and see what Neptune has to say to you.

June 4 - Venus squares Mars.  Feminine Spirit wants to partner up with her masculine consort.

June 5 - Venus transits the Sun.  You can see Venus going across the face of the Sun.  Make today a happy day.  Hold a LOVE-IN.

June 5 - a Moon/Pluto conjunction very similar to the Venus/Sun transit - Pluto is helping us release old patriarchal emotional wounds.

June 7 - Mercury goes into Moon-ruled Cancer.  See if you’re more attuned to your feelings. 

June 7 - Sun squares Mars in Virgo.  Watch out for that explosive energy today.

June 8 - Mercury trines Neptune in Pisces.  Time to watch your dreams!

June 11 - Jupiter begins his one year visit to Gemini.  Let the games begin!

June 11 - Mercury squares Uranus in Aries and opposes Pluto in Capricorn.  We’re gearing up for the first of 7 squares between these two 60s planets.  You might get a hit about what you’re here to do at this moment in history.

June 19 - there’s a second new Moon in Gemini this month, sort of like a blue moon but not.  For the next year and a half, the full Moon will come before the new Moon in each sign.   

After June 19th, the cosmic energies go into hyperdrive.  Look for the second Gemini New Moon Cosmic Story to explain it all.

Open yourselves to the wonders of the Universe - find a place to watch as Venus kisses the Sun for all to see.

Blessed Be!

Today’s DIG Diary: Like a Hurricane



Neil Young - Like A HurricaneNeil Young - Like A Hurricane


DOITGIRL.There is this new vision I have when I am in turmoil over someone, someone I have unresolved issues with. I see myself walking up to that person with my hands in a pair of handcuffs, and I say,”please release me. I am feeling tied and chained to that incident or that misunderstanding (whatever it is) and I can’t move forward. I know you don’t want this for me and I know I wouldn’t want this for you. Please unlock me and release me.” In every scenario, the person almost leaps at the chance to forgive me, unlock me. See, we all want to be free. The way I figure it we’re all working through enough chains of our own, we’d never want to be the source of someone else’s suffering. I can see the energtic ties to the people in my life, I see a lot of stuff like this energetically. When all is well, I seem them as threads of love and light channeling to each other from wherever we are in the world. When there is sadness, anger or confusion, I see them more as heavy chains (heavy and draining, or sick and icky) through which we, even unintentionally, can send each other negativity.  So, “please unlock me.” "Swa-ha,"  Sherry  says. "So it is. So be it. It is done.” She shakes her hands in the air and she gives herself a little energy bath. Please release me, I lovingly release you.

In my old life people used to say to me all the time "why can’t you just get over it, everything’s ‘fine.’" And yes maybe on the 3D surface everything was "fine,"- I’ve never done well with that word— my father still gets a lecture from my sister and me everytime he tells us we "look fine"—but if I felt there was something wrong on the energetic or spiritual level I couldn’t move on. Unfortunately I didn’t have the tools to process any of it well, I only mired in it, numbed it, stuffed it down, or ran from it. Recently I have heard myself saying to a few friends (when I was on my high advice horse- please stop me when I climb up on that thing) that they were "in limbo," which I personally view as Hell, and that they needed to make some decisions in order to move forward. That having a blueprint for things would make them feel safer and more purposeful. I kept dispensing that advice, even when it wasn’t entirely warranted for their situation, not realizing until now that it was self-directed. All of our advice is, everything, everyone, a mirror. So no, I am not making any decisions, I have been putting off everything I possibly could so as to not move forward in one direction. So many times I don’t listen to my own advice, I don’t walk my own talk. Recently my friend in Jerusalem was motivated to tell me the message: “Sarah! Get out there! It’s go time! Go!” But I still feel like I am hovering under the protection of the porch, waiting for the storm to stop, waiting for the moment to rush back out into the world. My friend painted that picture for me a few months ago, she told me that even though the worst of the storms are over, I’m still waiting to go back outside.  I am also having a hard time with how I feel about romantic love, and what it means in the new paradigm, how it will work. It’s hard to see how many of the old behavior patterns [all that festering attachment— for instance, I was always devasted by his every action or inaction- capsized, really] I had in relationships would align with my life now. I used to be so romantic, I drowned for every man I loved, when I used to fall (leap headfirst) for someone, it was all-encompassing quit your job to fly to him kindove “love,” because I thought love meant that someone else completed you, fulfilled you, saved you.  It was a very limited, dangerous way to live. Now that wholeness, non-duality, and balanced energy are some of my practices within the 5D paradigm, I don’t think I’m going to get swept off my feet the way I used to, like a hurricane.  I’ve had my old romantic notions challenged and shattered, they couldn’t withstand the new paradigm, they didn’t align with who I am anymore. And maybe today I miss that, maybe there are some romantic notions I’m not ready to part with. Maybe I miss that neediness, as scary and vulnerable as it is. How much daydreaming is too much? When have we gone too far? How do we know when we’ve created a dangerous illusion for ourselves? When we find ourselves back on the floor, I assume. When we suffer. Ascension has been the biggest gift of my life— it gave me a life— and I would never ever want to go back to sleep. But for someone to share the miracle, even enhance the miracle, that’s my new wish by the ocean, that’s what strikes my heart every time I pick up a rock to toss into the water. I want to share it. That’s the thing I realize I’m finally not too proud to say. And the other thing I realized is that the sexiest, scariest thing in the world you could say to me, a sometimes-fearful abandoned creature, is “I’ll stay with you.” For as long as this thing lasts, in every stage of the fire, throughout the scariest and most terrible parts, whether they - or you - are at times boring, disappointing or horrifying, I’ll stay with you. 

"Please don’t go. We’ll eat you up. We love you so." Maurice Sendak

"And Max, the king of all wild things, was lonely and wanted to be where someone loved him best of all." -Maurice Sendak   

"If there’s anything I’m proud of in my work-it’s not that I draw better; there’s so many better graphic artists than me-or that I write better, no. It’s-and I’m not saying I know the truth, because what the hell is that? But what I got from Ruth and Dave, a kind of fierce honesty, to not let the kid down, to not let the kid get punished, to not suffer the child to be dealt with in a boring, simpering, crushing-of-the-spirit kind of way."  Maurice Sendak

  

TUESDAY’S MAGIC. by WytchyMystique

Tuesday’s energy is powerful no-nonsense, in-your-face, getter’ done energy. If there are issues in your life that you need the courage to resolve, this is the day to work on it. If you want and need to set specific goals for your life so that you can progress, tap into the energy of Mars.

Planet: Mars

Color: orange

Herbs: allspice, basil, blood root, cactus, chili pepper, dragon’s blood, garlic, ginger, holly, horseradish, mustard, nettle, onion, pepper, pine, radish, snapdragon, thistle, tobacco, wormwood

Stones: bloodstone, garnet, jasper (red), ruby, tourmaline (red)

Element: Fire

Energies: defensive magick, regaining lost territory, assertion, resolving disagreement, successfully handling disruption, goals

Today’s Magick: Setting goals and drawing in the energy needed to achieve them. You’ll prepare a space to set up a candle, as well as herbs/flowers and stones from the list above. Your candle for today will be orange. Sit down in a quiet spot and write down your goals, listing them by priority. Take some time to really think about these goals, and take some time to daydream about them, imagining that you’ve already achieved your aspirations. Fold this paper into a small square and place it beneath the orange candle. Clear your mind of everyday chatter, focus on your intentions, and light the candle.

[WYTCHYMYSTIQUE]

TODAY’S ENERGY VIBRATIONS with KARIN BERKY

ENERGY WISDOM Tues 8th May: You are in transition. It is real and you begin to notice the foundations you are creating begin to change form. The weekends Supermoon had you facing or recognising parts of yourself which may have brought a sense of fear, trepidation and perhaps emotional feelings. Your heart is opening. As you open and drop fear based thinking, and the armour that goes with fear, you begin to SOFTEN. Once you begin to face the new skill, or new aspects of yourself, you realise that you are claiming previously unacknowledged parts of your being that have always actually been there! You shift from ‘lack’ thinking to ‘abundance’ thinking. This requires you to be open to RECEIVING from something more than yourself and also from other people with the moon currently still in Sagittarius. The sun is also starting to move toward Jupiter and Lilith which is ‘expanding’ you even if this is a tad uncomfortable. A softening and opening to receiving allows vulnerability and love to enter. You will begin to now see other people either curious or even challenging you as your shifts and changes become ‘visible’ to others now. So it’s a balance between opening up and staying strong in your values. Rather than being ruled by fear you now make breakthroughs and begin seeing real change in motion. In-Joy ~~Evolving Souls, Copyright © 2012 Karin Berky. All rights reserved.

  

COSMIC DIRT ASTROLOGY
May 8 2012, Fire and Ice, Mars Quincunx Uranus

There could be strange, spontaneous encounters as Mars quincunx Uranus today in the earlier hours. As a storm cloud brews, the winds of change are just around the corner. Like a clash between hot and cold, possible disagreements or confrontations can be stirred, to create something different than the path we are on. Mars is angry and creating, while Uranus is defiant and rebelling, Depending on your birth chart or your individual situation, something could break as Jupiter steps in. This vibration can be uncomfortable, so it is suggested to slow down and at least use caution ~ just in case. A careful approach can avoid mishaps that develop from sending out the wrong signals. An unusual weather system could be in the making, as well as fender benders, electrical fires, or stairwell slips. Find a way to creatively adjust into new grounds and alternative paths. If you’re familiar with my intuitive tremors that I randomly post on Twitter and Facebook, we may possibly experience an earth storm or #earthquake in the next few days. I posted a ‘feeling’ that came through earlier today at 12:32pm, and as I post this, a few more have managed to grab my attention.

The Sagittarian Moon extends her own heat, and we may may be quick to voice ourselves in a big way if the wrong buttons are pushed. Instead, we should have our listening ears on and learn something from is being expressed today.. whether this be from a situation, and individual, or from our own instincts. By staying quiet and still, we will gain insight for direction. Later this evening, sensitivities calm as Luna sextiles constructive Saturn, with a fortunate trine to persuasive Mercury. As Moon enters tough Capricorn, we’re able to ground and gravitate back to the earth. 

"Healing is not forcing the sun to shine, but letting go of that which blocks the light." S. Levine. 

Daily Tarot: Four of Wands, Death: We’re stepping out from our comfort zone.

 


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Facing the fire is what we can experience as Moon trines electric Uranus and logical Mercury today. The cosmos support our need to be real and true. Happiness is found when we make sense and follow our heart. Sun trines empowering Pluto rx today, breathing new life into our soul. The poison has been extracted and we’re no longer lost and in the dark. An explosion of energy strikes us with healing rays. Just as a strong oak tree embraces the storm, we’ve survived the nightmare. What had once been toxic; rots and falls away, with new signs of growth. “Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood”. Marie Curie. Tarot guidance from The Chariot rx, Wheel of Fortune rx: Perhaps it was bad luck.. or just poor vision.

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Today’s DIG DIARY: “I’M NOT SORRY”



WHISPERS
laurie cabot today. Monday, March 26: Wear Copper/Green. A loving day. Do an act of kindness, it will come back when you need it.
laurie cabot tomorrow. Tuesday, March 27: Wear Black. At 10PM write a list of what you want, and place it under your pillow.
DOITGIRL. Feel No Shame.
Song. The Comeback, Shout Out Louds
Shout Out Louds - The ComebackShout Out Louds - The Comeback 



DOITGIRL

I don’t do it very often, but sometimes I feel guilt for being this free and happy. I know this is part of leaving your old paradigm, releasing old trappings and illusions like guilt and fear, and disowning the notion I can’t be happy if others in my life are suffering. Sometimes the reminders that, as Springsteen says “it ain’t no sin to be glad you’re alive,” come at just the right moments. I’ll get an email from a friend and see that the last time we spoke- if it was over a year and a half ago- I was writing from within a deep dark prison. I don’t sound like me, I barely sound alive. I’ll briefly remember my suicidal days when I once asked my sister to take care of my dog “If anything happened to me.” I’ll remember the pain I caused my family, my father, my aunt, my sister, that whole year I wanted to die. I don’t forget what I’ve been through, I hold that girl with me and I continue to show her the light. I know this is great responsibility, this life, this gift, this journey, this mission. I am no longer careless with me, I hold her like a mother. You’ve been through hell, I tell her. Now let me show you heaven. Slowly, miraculously, in this new era of love, light, and healing, I bring her home to safety and love. My darkness was no joke. That I am still here is no accident. There are no accidents. If you feel yourself moving up and away from your dark old paradigm, by all means, keep moving up, up and away. Do not stay in the dark water. Get to shore and be a lighthouse. When my mother died this boy I was seeing broke up with me, because it scared him, the enormousness of it. We were all so young and sheltered. I didn’t care for him, really, but he was cool, older, popular, and because of the timing of events, he was also my first time. I had slept with him the night the doctor told us she didn’t have much longer. It was anti-intimate, it was super quick, it made me feel emptier and much worse, but watching my mother in the hospital made me scared of dying not having lived and so I asked him for the experience. When she died a few days later, he called and said it was over, because, he said; “I don’t want to leave you one day and cause you pain, like your mother.” It was absurd to think he had that power. It was so ego-maniacal. “That’s not possible,” I said to him. But maybe it was possible, because after she died I gave everything away, all the time. I allowed people to take, then I resented it. I wanted everything and everyone to love me, despite never loving myself. Her death launched a decade of me offering myself up to others, so that someone or something outside of myself could save me. My friend Bebban and I used to feel like constant sacrificial lambs, always putting our necks out on the chopping block. Like, “take us, we’re got nothing, we are nothing.” I spent over ten years giving myself away until there was nothing left but a withered, bereaved, resentful dying grey soul that finally died and made way for the Shakti. Then I re-awakened into this new paradigm. Then everything changed. But I heard it again the other day, those words. Someone the other day was frustrated with me, they didn’t understand why I wasn’t rolling over and playing dead when they were mad, why I move forward confidently in my choices and don’t roll around in the mud and grovel that I’m so sorry, just to be doing what’s right for me. [You know that old way where you were sorry for breathing, sorry for speaking, if it bothered offened someone else]. I know that what’s right for me is right for the world. But that person was giving me under-handed compliments, and icy digs, then they said, “I would never want to take anything away from you,” but I stopped listening at that part. That was my sign. This person and people like that— we don’t speak the same language. We didn’t live in the same dimension. I choose my battles very carefully, I am not going to defend or explain myself to you, because it’s like screaming into a vacuum. I don’t live in the 3-D world anymore. I momentarily wanted to yell, that no one can take anything away from anyone else. No one, unless you let them. The moment passed. I wished them love and light. I moved on. If you try to drag me back down with guilt and fear, it will not work. My Battle is not an illusion- the darkness was real. I won’t go back. I won’t retun to the dungeon so you feel safe and validated. Anytime something in your life is dying it is surrenduring so something greater can take its place. Last week I saw spiders everywhere. Spiders scared me in my old life. Now they symbolize re-birth. The meek me dying, a great warrior is awakening. I welcome the cycle, I welcome the change. I am here to protect, honor, love, defend this great ancient being who I am. I am here to ascend far past the suffering, into the new dimension. So are you. The body, mind, heart, and soul is your temple. No one gets in without you saying so. So stay enveloped in your light. Let the darkness pass like clouds. Keep your head up and your heart open. Keep up the good fight. Know yours truths. You are a warrior of light. Heal yourself. Fight for love. Save the earth.

 

 

STARS

"The Taurus Moon starts our week out nicely, keeping us determined in attaining our goals today. Realizing the importance of all that we have accumulated through hard work, we knowingly become the designer of the world that we live in. A bit quieter of a day, our inner artist surges as Moon conjuncts with beautifying Venus. 

  

"Every artist dips his brush in his own soul, and paints his own nature into his pictures." - Henry Ward Beecher. 

Tarot guidance from Three of Wands, Death: To create, we must be willing to destroy first.  via Suzi Cavallo Dronzek

 

 

MOON 

NEW MOON IN ARIES AND AFTER. 

Aries symbolizes the beginning of a new cycle of manifestation and life experience, as we overcome the pull of the collective past, symbolized by the previous sign Pisces. As the first sign of the zodiac, Aries is the archetype of initiation, emergence and new frontiers. The Ram at his best is loving, courageous, pioneering and decisive. Our Aries energy represents our ability to lead and inspire, to change the world for the better. It gives us the courage to act upon our own initiative and to take the next step on our evolutionary journey.

We are on the edge of a new frontier. We have the opportunity to plant seeds of wisdom, to penetrate the soil of the minds of others. And for every seed we plant many more will multiply and grow. Where this New Moon falls in our charts, we are learning to be true to ourselves and to act from the confidence and faith of our inner spirit. It takes courage to follow our hearts. Using our Aries focus and determination, we can hang on to what we truly value. In this area of life we are asked to be strong, to reach out to others with unconditional love, to be love in action. Aries is the sign of the Free Spirit, the Visionary Leader and the Spiritual Warrior.

Michael, Archangel of the Sun, is closely associated with Aries and its ruler Mars. He holds the sword, representing the power of the spirit, aloft in one hand and the scales of justice in the other, while he courageously tramples the dragon of selfish desire underfoot (negative expression of Aries). The scales depict the perfect balancing of mind and heart, will and love. The sword of light, symbolizing divine truth, can conquer all darkness and help create Peace on Earth.

Mars is still retrograde (January 23 - April 13), urging us to courageously make a stand for the principles we believe in. The Moon’s exact conjunction with Uranus (March 24) and square to Pluto (March 29) emphasize the transformational theme of our times for personal and collective change. Holding on to the past is futile. The imperative for change is intensifying. Something old is dying; something new is crying to be born. When using the sword of light, we are expressing our capacity for unconditional love in action, serving and protecting the greater good of all. At this very moment, we have the opportunity to create a new tomorrow, to raise our faces toward the Sun, to be guided by our spirit within, and co-create ‘Heaven on Earth.’”

"Do you want to know the secret of life? That which the seed does naturally, do consciously." Goethe VIA  JHaines6


WORDS

"Surrender is faith that the power of Love can accomplish anything even when you cannot forsee the outcome." - Deepak Chopra

 "To love is to recognize yourself in another." Eckhart Tolle

Today’s DIG Diary: Kundalini Symptoms/You are Safe

 
 

 

Magic Whispers.

Power Color. Yellow

Tomorrow’s Laurie Cabot. Friday, March 23: Wear Red. Stay strong. Carry peppercorns in your pocket. Light a red candle for majick. 

DOITGIRL. New Moon, New You

Notable. New Moon. 

Song. Better Days, Eddie Vedder

Eddie Vedder - Better DaysEddie Vedder - Better Days

 

 

DOITGIRL. I feel like some of you are still worried that you’re going crazy. If you are in the place where you just feel you’re constantly being tested and failing, and constantly feeling insane, know this phase ends, and you get through it. I know this phase can range from mild to Girl, Interrupted. It’s definitely not going to be like this forever, you are not always going to be the “crazy” sister or daughter or friend. Your life will make sense again. No more emergencies. You’ll have created an entirely new environment and surrondings with totally new characters, because the old ways simply stop working anymore. And this will be a very healthy fulfilling life for you, but you can’t get there without some serious transition and growing pains. There will be some opposition, probably rooted in fear, from others. There will be lots of opposition from your ego. But when you get to the other side you will truly realize fear is an illusion. You will know it like the sky is blue, like you know your name. Fear isn’t real. But it sure feels it when your whole life is crumbling beneath your feet. I can at least tell you from that where I am, I look at those times those long months after the awakening, when I was crawling from one way of being in the world to a dramatically different one— and it was all so dangerous feeling and scary- hard. But I didn’t have any help. You should seek others who have had awakenings, and ground yourselves as often as possible, meditate on your root chakra. Remind yourself you are safe and you can trust your self to respond wisely and safely in any situation.  Buy the books. Go to yoga. Lay off the chemicals. Sleep as often as possible, with blankets and socks on your feet. Eat root vegetables to literally root you. Lay off the kundalini breathing/krias if your symptoms are getting too intense.  Get away from anyone who makes you feel unloved or crazy. Get away from people who tempt you or guilt you back into your old self-loathing behaviors.  I want to tell you that I’m totally ok now, better than I’ve ever been in my whole life. I’m very much in my body, not floating around somewhere above my crown chakra, as I was by the time I got to Kripalu. My symptoms? I had so much energy then I was running in the summer heat for three hours at a time, the only reason I would stop was because I got hungry-but I was never very hungry and eating very little- maybe a salad a day. My energy was far too frenetic to eat. I only needed a few hours to sleep, I was having kundalini “seizures” in my sleep- I’d literally wake up with dreads— and I was always up before the sun. I was having major visions. I was babbling about enlightenment constantly. Some people jumped at my touch. Other people walked up to me to like I had a light inside of me. But it was all too intense— I definitely headed for a crash. Admittedly- I enjoyed the high of it- I felt like a superhero, until I flew into a building. I say, take the gentle footpath. Don’t take the mile high zipline like I did.

Now I have enough people (“soul family”) I can talk to in my own language on a regular basis, I’ve stopped saying “I know this is going to sound crazy, but,” because I don’t feel crazy anymore and I speak my truths now. I’ve re-designed my life so that I can live the best life for me at this moment, and I’m not transitioning between worlds anymore, Ive finally stopped fighting at all for the dream of my old life. I’ve landed fully on this enlightenened (some days) path I live on now. It suits me much, much better. I want you to know you’ll get here too. You’re re-routing your ship. If your life were like a big freightliner headed across the ocean one way for however many years you’ve been alive- and then you had your awakening- you’re going to have to come about- because none of those old desires will be relevant anymore. You’re going to re-route for new shore. You’re un-learning however many years you’ve been alive of three-dimensional thinking, fear-based thinking. It’s not an overnight job, Rome wasn’t built in a day, and you are re-building your dream- your self. You’re not going crazy, you’re going sane. You’re changing. It’s disorienting, but it’s good. You’re really ASKING QUESTIONS NOW. You’re really waking up! 

"Change yourself and you’ve already started to change the world." Osho. 

 

It’s not crazy to say you want to change the world. It’s crazy to say you don’t want to.

Love, DIG. 

  

WORDS

"Although I may try to describe Love,

When I experience it, I am speechless.”
Rumi

  

"Each day brings its own problems, its own challenges and each moment brings its own questions. And if you have ready-made answers in your head you will not be able even to listen to the question. 

You will be so full of your answer, 
you will be incapable of listening. 
You will not be available.” Osho

"The only way I can see your guiltlessness is if I focus on who you are in this moment. What you did yesterday is the ego’s illusion; who you are in this moment is the Spirit’s truth. Only forgiveness sets me free." Marianne Williamson

  

  

STARS

SUZI CAVALLO DRONZEK. Deep emotions and hidden desires are being stirred today as Moon enters into pioneering Aries. To get what we need, we may be ready to cross over limited boundaries in order to step onto fresh, unfamiliar territories. Under the Aries Moon, we have an urge to experience excitement and the thrill, and we can get this by embracing our courage to face fears. This is favorable energy for taking on challenges, beginnings, new projects, and discovering new routes to get us where we are going. As Luna conjuncts Mercury rx (thoughts, communications), Sun (identity, ego), and Uranus (change, reform) ~ we may experience a prominent shift thats dares us to take control of our direction in life.

As Luna conjuncts Sun, a new cosmic event is stirred which forms the New Moon. With this particular timing, a great power is produced in darkness and the unseen. What we hold most important inside of us: our deepest desires, hidden secrets, and most private thoughts will form a new seed within us. As we hold onto these specific thoughts and feelings, we tightly wrap ourselves around them, nurturing our seed with all that we are experiencing. Then over the next four weeks, our seed develops and grows into our potential and motivation, and what a great way to kick off the Spring Equinox. This is why it is always important to be in control of our own thoughts and feelings, for they truly determine our true direction.. not the outside forces. Staying true to ourselves can be aided with tools such as affirmations. As we carefully create a positive statement to map out our goal, we can remind ourselves daily with our plan of action, to avoid temptations that will distract us onto other paths. Perhaps your March Tarotscope could be of assistance.

The New Moon takes place in Aries, so our intentions and magical words should include its cardinal energy with: creativity, leadership, courage, passion, enterprise, as well unstoppable. We are encouraged to control ourselves and our own destiny, because our magic is only for our own assistance. If we try to control others and our surroundings, the shadow side of Aries may occur, like selfishness, impatience, and explosion. A positive affirmation may be ‘I am a successful entrepreneur of my happiness’, or ‘I am the designer for the world that I create’.

Aries is ruled by fireball Mars, who is currently retrograde. The key statement for Aries is: ‘I am’. Determine who you are, to create where you are going. Do not look to your outer world (like your friends, family, work, etc) to decide this for you. The retrograde and the Dark Moon require us to look deep inside of our own heart and soul, so that we may truly ‘see’ our image. If we can genuinely do this, then we can understand that we are capable of transforming our reflection, to recreate our personal version of happiness. We are all skilled survivors because of our eternal flame. Celebrate and love yourself today.

 ”When you have nothing left to burn, you must set yourself on fire”. 

Dr. Jack Kevorkian. 

Tarot guidance from Ten of Wands rx, Nine of Cups: Accept yourself, by honoring your past.

  

MOON. 

Phase: New Moon. 

CATHY PAGANO. 

"This Aries New Moon packs a lot of power. Joining the Moon and Sun are Mercury and Uranus. Mercury is that Logos aspect of Aries I was talking about. Having Mercury’s energy added to this new Moon can help us strategize. So let your logical mind guide you as Hermes guided the heroes of Greece. Mercury/Hermes is the divine Messenger, the logos who drives the chariot of our instinctual life. With Mercury retrograde focusing our attention on the inner world of our hopes and fears, pay attention to your dreams this week to actively seek a clue to the next step in your personal evolution.  

The Sabian symbol for Mercury retrograde at 1* Aries is: A woman just risen from the sea. A seal is embracing her. This symbolizes a new birth, the emergence of new forms and the potential for greater consciousness. Life is opening up for us if we look at it from a cosmic perspective. What new life wants to be born within you? Listen to your dreams for an answer.

This first new Moon of the year acts like a catalyst for the first upcoming Uranus/Pluto square in June. How will you carry forward the energies of evolution and revolution this year? As I mentioned, the Sun joins Uranus on Saturday, March 24th. Go out and explore your world and see what happens.

The Sabian symbol for Uranus at 5* Aries is: A triangle with wings. This symbolizes the possibility of transcending our old self and bringing in a new dimension of being. The triangle is an ancient symbol of the divine Feminine principle, since the Goddess was the original trinity - Maiden, Mother and Crone. It also describes the vulva as the source of birth. It’s time to give wing to the Divine Feminine within you. Listen to your creative imagination - let it take wing within you.

Mars, the ruler of Aries, is still retrograding in Virgo. This could help us focus our energy on the details of what we want to accomplish this year. We have to hone our warrior energy and embody the sacred Masculine, not the patriarchal masculine. A sacred warrior defends the Truth and serves the whole. It’s time to be bold and take a stand.   The Sabian symbol for Mars retrograde at 7* Virgo is: A Harem. One meaning of this symbol concerns our ability to put to good use the emptiness of waiting. We are all in this together, waiting for our purpose to become clear as events out of our control begin to manifest. Take the time to hone your skills.

Venus and Jupiter are still close to each other in Taurus, and still forming a grand trine (triangle) to Pluto in Capricorn and Mars in Virgo. This is earth manifestation energy but we have to tune into it. See the March 13th blog on this grand trine in Earth signs at: http://wisdom-of-astrology.blogspot.com/

There is also a mutable grand cross with the lunar nodes in Gemini/Sagittarius and Chiron/Neptune in Pisces and Mars retrograde in Virgo. The lunar nodes ask us all to question the facts (South Node in Gemini) and look for a new perspective (North Node in Sagittarius) on what’s going on in the world. We really need to know what we believe if we’re going to be the hero/hera of our new story. The Sabian symbol for the North Node (our collective new direction) for 8* Sagittarius is: Within the depths of the Earth, new elements are being formed.   It seems forces are at work within the depths of the collective unconscious that can lead to a new awareness of life. The past 25 years have been a time a psychic gestation and now we will begin to see what has been cooking!

Chiron and Neptune in Pisces open us to the pain and suffering of the world and demand that we use our Mars to start grappling with the real issues that are facing us. The truth is we’re all in this together. It’s time to work together to change the world. 2012 is finally begun.

Saturn is still in Libra, demanding we take responsibility for injustice in our society as well as in our personal lives. Saturn in Libra values diplomacy. If only the world’s politicians valued peace as much as they value war. It’s time for the people to take a stand for peace. (Pandora is just playing Lennon’s Give Peace a Chance. I love synchronicities!) Saturn is opposite the dwarf planet Ceres, the great Mother Goddess of the grains. We’re going to have to figure out how to feed each other fairly.

I know I’ve said it before, but it bears repeating. Please pay attention to your dreams this week! The Aries New Moon opposes the Super Galactic Center at 3* Libra, opening us to our cosmic instructions. The Sabian symbol for 3* Libra is: The dawn of a new day reveals everything changed.   The heavens are with us. We just have to believe it.

Bright Blessings on us all this Spring Equinox as the Light grows stronger both within and without.

Cathy”

 

SAGITTARIUS (Nov. 22-Dec. 21): You’re entering one of the most
buoyant phases of your astrological cycle. Your mandate is to be brash
and bouncy, frothy and irrepressible. To prepare you, I’ve rounded up
some exclamatory declarations by poet Michael McClure. Take them with
you as you embark on your catalytic adventures. They’ll help you
cultivate the right mood. McClure: “Everything is natural. The light on
your fingertips is starlight. Life begins with coiling — molecules and
nebulae. Cruelty, selfishness, and vanity are boring. Each self is many
selves. Reason is beauty. Light and darkness are arbitrary divisions.
Cleanliness is as undefinable and as natural as filth. The physiological body is pure spirit. Monotony is madness. The frontier is both outside and
inside. The universe is the messiah. The senses are gods and goddesses.
Where the body is — there are all things.” FIND YOUR ROB BREZSNY SCOPE!

March 19th: DOITGIRL DIARY: MY MAGICAL LIFE


  DOITGIRL. My Magical Life. 

3.19.12 MAGIC WHISPERS.


Laurie Cabot. Monday, March 19: 
Wear Lavender. Point your wand north, ask for balance in your life, take care of an animal. 

DOITGIRL whisper. 'Ignore those that make you fearful and sad, that degrade you back towards disease and death.' RUMI

Song of the Day. “Solsbury Hill,” Peter Gabriel

Notable. Quintaria 

 

Peter Gabriel  - Solsbury Hill (Original Cut)Peter Gabriel - Solsbury Hill (Original Cut)

 ‎”I could not believe the information, I just had to trust imagination. Grab Your Things, I’ve come to take you home.” Peter Gabriel

 

DOITGIRL

I can’t look at my old journals anymore. They are filled with so much sadness, pain, and darkness it hurts to read them. For the most part, I tried to hide so much of that sadness all those years so that I would  be bearable to be around, but if you knew me intimately, you knew I was constantly in battle, and mostly losing. Last Friday’s newsletter broke the tone I’ve had in these, it turned more didactic about yogic spiritual life- but that’s not what I’m doing here, it doesn’t serve me or you if I fumble around in areas I’m still discovering myself. You can find the illuminated knowledge of Christina Sell, Elena Brower, etc, online for that sort of information. What I’m doing here, with DOITGIRL, is continuing to crack myself open and allow myself the most authentic, honest, purest, fullest life after what I filled 30 years of journals with: pain and suffering. Just this morning I flipped through an old diary and I saw how much I truly owe it to her, to my old self. She was asking again and again, “will I ever be ok? Will anyone ever love me? Will I ever even like myself? Who am I? Am I going to die alone and scared?” So that’s what I’m doing, I’m answering her. I’m doing this for her, me, and you. DOITGIRL started out because some mornings- most mornings- I couldn’t even put both feet on the floor. You can DOITGIRL, Rise up, I would say to myself.

 

Again, I REALLY want to say that if I can turn my life around and become the woman of my wildest dreams- I know you can too.

 

What I have discovered about myself since waking up is an inner mystic with reaches far more powerful than I ever had any idea. While I love yoga, and am going to start training to become a teacher in a week and a half, what I truly am is a mystic. I never had any example of this, there isn’t someone I’m modeling myself off, I’m looking at the woman in my heart for inspiration. I grew up in preppy town in Virginia, I went to college at a preppy college down the road. My first job was at Rolling Stone, which launched a career of me writing about other people performing their own unique and powerful brand of magic. That felt, though, almost more painful, to be so close to magic all the time, but not be able to find or express my own. I feared I would die without ever knowing my own magic. 

 

My ex, a lead musician and a powerful orator in his own right, used to say it felt like I was trapped under glass. That’s how it felt to him, because he deeply loved me and it pained him. I felt that way too. Like I had been frozen under the ice, and everyone else was skating and playing up on the pond. How did they know how to be happy? The only solace was my love knew how I felt, but neither of us had the magic key to break me out of my case. When I was sad, he would bring me movies I loved that I had watched with my mother— movies about women who transformed their lives, movies I had watched over and over again. They pained me also, for both me and my mother- who I feel was on the brink of her transormation right before her untimely death of cancer at 45. We would watch Baby BoomPrivate BenjaminRuthless People. 80’s movies with big cheesy soundtracks and big powerful transformations for their heroines. I’d also watch Practical Magic a lot. Growing up I devoured Alice Hoffman’s magical, mystical books, and this movie adaptation I loved. Two magical women- one blond one dark- living by the sea in a magical house, healing the women of the small seaside town. I have probably watched it 500 times. Glimpses of me, tiny glimpses, then back to the dark and angry sea of my life, that sea would eventually drown me. 

 

These days, when I close my eyes and seek more knowledge about this spirit within me, the visions are electrifyingly vivid. I am on a terrain similar to the Scottish highlands, I am at one with nature, animals, and the Divine. My hair is long black and tangled, I am wearing a white dress that whips in the wind. The skies are purple, the wind is rising around me, the sea is rising below me, there are hawks in the sky, an owl on shoulder, there are wolves at my feet. This is my world, not the current one of society today. Never, I thought, could I be this powerful woman on the cliff. But my life now is about belief- for me there is no other way. And perhaps you’ve noticed in this awakening world— there aren’t coincidences any more. Even last night, my arms folded over my heart, candles lit, laying in the darkness, I asked for ONE MORE SIGN that this was all real, that this is who I really am, and you know what I heard back— “How many signs do you need?” Hah! So yes, it’s real. 

 

At 33, I pray this is only the beginning of my adventure. I love life so much that some days my fear of death is great— last night that fear hit a peak. To think, I used to tempt it, flirt with it, with the pills and the boys and the blackouts.

 

 

I don’t feel ashamed to be a witch, a mystic, a shaman, a goddess, what I feel is a great sense of responsibility for my gifts. This woman who I am— she had the power to heal, to save, and to lead others to the light. She had telepathic powers with animals, plants, and people. Her beauty would draw you to her, then she would heal you. When a friend in Hawaii - who I had not told any of this— did my birth chart, he saw my past that I thought- at one pont- I could have been making up, because I longed for it so. But he too saw the path of my soul from the beginning of time— that I was a witch, priestess, or Goddess, and I had great, far-reaching power. But then I was cast out or abandoned by my people, and forever I roamed, bereaved, angry, ever-searching for my home. This is my story, this is the wound I am healing in this life time. This is the pain I entered this world with, this time around. This is the story I have repeated in my life again and again, until I woke up a year and a half ago. We are all healing our ancient wounds and the wounds of our ancestors. This is our work here. 

 

My life is magical now, so I would say, the bereaved and homeless goddess has been found and saved, she is home in me, and she is healing. I am doing this for her. When I say witch— I am not talking about “the craft,” or even spells, although spells are fun- but should not be taken lightly. I am talking about a witch in the sense that I believe in energy, power, the elements, earth magic, that everything lives with a story to tell and its own power to wield. I believe that what you send out comes back threefold. Harm none. The more research one does on “witches” of the trials in Europe and Salem, the more we see, they were healers, or powerful women who others were afraid of. It’s ancient, ancient sexism and fear of women in power and the powers of women.. Go freaking figure.

 

Many of us are born haveing forgotten who we are. We are all ancient, we are all trying to find our way home. My passion is reconnecting us to the earth and to our primal ancient power, and to our lost selves. When we are severed from our true selves, chaos and danger insues. I spent 30 years bereaved, angry, searching, only to find a temporary home that would eventually, in its own way, burst into flames, and I would wander again. I was always very different, always watching life nose pressed against the glass. This can’t be life, I would think, while others around me seemed to be enjoying themselves, which I oftend resented. Energy channeled through me easily, although I didn’t understand my responsibility in things at the time. If it was negative, I could cause quite a destructive storm. I could make things happen. I could get what I wanted. I just NEVER knew how to treat it or keep it, because I had no idea how to care for myself, let alone anything else. But when it was positive, I could cause that sort of storm as well. I’ve always loved the elements- except heat. The higher the wind and the rain, the most myself I felt. My thoughts were always- when not focused on myself, boys, parties, how to lie to my boss to get out of work— the kinds of things that people were afraid of. I was a magnet for extremes, big love, big sadness, big jobs, big dark and deep trenches, looking back it’s a movie, all the highs and all the lows, but not one I would want to watch. I used to only watch the movies of my past, but I have left that theater for good. I have to clean out all the gunk from the past so my true self can live freely and happily and powerfully in my body in the present.

 

I am working with my powers, I am 99% love. The parts I need to heal are still rising, and I will do what it takes to heal them. Since that bright Virgo full moon that showed us to ourselves so clearly, a lot has been surfacing in the recent days. I’ve taken a lot of walks through the country, I’ve reikied myself with sacred stones placed on my body, I’ve meditated, done a lot of yoga, and I started hula hooping. I was never a dancer but we did some of this on our Goddess Retreat in Hawaii. Hooping doesn’t work if you don’t know how to dance with your eyes closed, just you and the Divine, the Shakti rhythm running up your spine. You’ve got to find and feel your own rhythm and stay in it, or you’ll drop the hoop. If your ego comes into play, you drop it. Distraction by others, drop it. The looser, easier, and freer you are, the better you are. The hoop represents the path. The way I move in that hoop does not feel familiar from this life, but yes from the past— some lusty sensual woman from a primal time, dusty feet, bare legs, bare belly, bare arms and playful, seductive smile, wakes up in that hoop. I spent the weekend in the backyard, under the hot spring sun, dancing and doing yoga and playing with the dogs. And lemme tell you, it was magic. 

 

I can tell you all about discovering that I was ancient mystic, step by stumbling step— literally two years ago I stumbled over an old cauldron at an antique shop in a fishing village and it called to me- yet I had never ever wanted one or thought of one—- that was the beginning of my coming out as Me….It was a challenge to “own” that cauldron because I was on a shopping trip with this beautiful, popular, skinny tan yogini girl who made me feel so insecure, she laughed at me as I bought it. The call for the cauldron was larger than my need to be liked. Looking back I was so weak, but I was at the very beginning of my journey to find my power. Now, that cauldron is filled with beach stones and shells, and each one I have wished on, my only audience the sea. Oh and yes— every single wish has come true.

 

Keep finding your way back to yourself, pay attention to the signs, sometimes they whisper, sometimes they sing, sometimes they scream— but they are all leading you back to who you truly are, leading you home. You do know when something is speaking directly to you. You just have to trust yourself. You are unlocking the secrets of yourself and you’re mighty powerful, make no mistake. Anything that tells you you are not, is a lie. We are all born without memory of who we are, and our personal power. Remember, what you seek seeks you. Seek Your Self. If you can dream it, you can be it. And chances are, if you’ve dreamt it, you already ARE it. Now become it. ♥<3

RULES OF A WITCH

 

Live in harmony with nature, the world, and people.

Respect all paths whether or not you agree with them. Do not impose your own beliefs upon others through acts of evangelism or conversion.

Respect your body, and keep it healthy and pure through practices such as exercise, healthy eating, and meditation.

Celebrate life and living. Don’t just exist.

Attune with the cycles of the earth.

Respect all people, regardless of sex, age, race, culture, class and religion.

Respect and revere the God and Goddess in their many forms.

Always focus on learning and understanding for personal growth through reading, practising your craft, and accepting the advice and wisdom of others.

Harness and develop your power and nuture a kind of union with the gods and powers of nature.

Create balance in your own life by embracing all the above.

 

WORDS

 "You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition.  What you’ll discover will be wonderful.  What you’ll discover is yourself."  -Alan Alda

"The greatest explorer on this earth never takes voyages as long as those of the man who descends to the depth of his heart."  -Julien Green
 "When one feels pulled to do a particular thing, when one has passion for a certain life path, karma is always involved.  In such an instance, when the goal is worthy and makes one happy, one should continue on that same life path.  Just because the elephant cannot carry you anymore doesn’t mean you should give up your goal.  Continue down the path that makes you feel fulfilled.  Those who continue on an unrewarding path for the sake of only monetary gain are displaying a lack of trust in life."  -Kwan Yin

"Your work is to discover your world and then with all your heart give yourself to it."  -Buddha

STARS
COMSIC DIRT WTIH SUZI. ”The cosmos begin to relax, allowing us to experience an inner calm as Luna kindly trines unflustered Saturn this afternoon. She then slides from quirky Aquarius, into mellow Pisces this evening. Like the lotus, our compassion and inner beauty begins to open and bloom beneath the Pisces Moon. As Luna conjuncts to Neptune, we are able to fully release what we are feeling as we escape logic and common sense. Listening, quietness, and the magic of touch is much more beneficial than the use of words. If we must speak, be mindful of our words and what we project onto others during the Mercury retrograde. Also favorable for music, meditation, creative, and artist pursuits, as our imagination hypnotizes us into a sweet calm. Romance, along with an early night of sleep could be heavenly and filled with comforting dreams. 
'There will be signs in the sun, moon, and stars'. Luke 21:25.
Tarot guidance from Page of Wands rx, Page of Cups: Use caution when intuition speaks. SUZI CAVALLO DRONZEK

MOON
WANING CRESCENT PHASE, Approaching the New Moon

"Moon of Harvest" 

Location: Moon is 270 - 315 degrees ahead of the Sun Span: Seven to ten and a half days after the Full Moon. 
Positive activities: Release of any negativity, not just banishing it but consciously letting go of it . Continuing any banishing done during the last phase.

Goals:  

Continue work from last phase. Good time to concentrate on removal of self from situations, relationships, and habits. Relates to the Storing of the Harvested Plant. A time to rid oneself of everything that is causing obstruction, to get rid of anything (or one) you know longer need. Good time for hair cuts to slow growth, dye hair, pluck eyebrows (wax …)Time for self-analysis, rest an recuperation, meditation and readying oneself for the energies of the New Moon. 

 

The third quarter, Full Moon through Last Quarter, ideally brings illumination to the influences of the entire lunar cycle. The fourth quarter, called the “Last Quarter,” is from the Moon square Sun aspect through the next New Moon. It can bring a crisis in consciousness. This cycle’s experiences have culminated and one must now prepare for rebirth. VIA WHITE GODDESS


ANCIENT. Quinquatria, MAR 19
In Ancient Roman religious tradition, the Quinquatria or Quinquatrus was a festival sacred to Minerva, celebrated on the 19 March. Ovid says that this festival was celebrated in commemoration of the birthday of Minerva; but according to Festus it was sacred to Minerva because her temple on the Aventine was consecrated on that day. As this festival was sacred to Minerva, it seems that women were accustomed to consult fortune-tellers and diviners upon this day. Domitian caused it to be celebrated every year in his Alban villa, situated at the foot of the Alban hills, and instituted a collegium to superintend the celebration, which consisted of the hunting of wild beasts, of the exhibition of plays, and of contests of orators and poets.

Today’s Newsletter: Throw it a Funeral and Move On

Namaste


 
3.14.12 Magic Whispers. 
laurie cabot. Wear Red. Drive carefully. Watch out for red cars.
doitgirl. ask your fear where it’s coming from. try to understand it.
song of the day. ”The Funeral” Band of Horses
notable. Equirria. CELEBRATE YOUR INNER WARRIOR. EXPEL THE OLD, BRING IN THE NEW.  
 
 Band Of Horses - The Funeral (2006)Band Of Horses - The Funeral (2006)
 
 
DOITGIRL- WAITING IN DOORWAYS

When you allow yourself to grieve you allow the natural process all life needs- by allowing winter, you allow spring. You’ve got to go in to get out. If you don’t go to the funeral inside yourself-if you put off facing the pain of the loss for years —then you’re stuck and holding up the natural cycles of your life. Life around you goes on, while you stay somewhere back where you got hurt or things got real dark. Last night I mourned and buried something I have been running from for years. That load is lighter today. The path appears much broader. The letting go was and is real. I talked to my astrologer on the phone the other day and she told me something to the extent of this: “It’s time to stop waiting by the door and not leaving the house because you’re afraid of storms. You have made it through the worst of the storms. You can go outside and live now.” 

I understand holding on too long to pain. In the past I have even let my pain define me. But if we can throw the loss a funeral, where we pull up a seat or a pew and honor the loss, look at it and say goodbye, even allow the feeling of “failing” or fear because that person or old dream is no longer in your life, we can begin to start to heal. And then healing, I’ve learned, can happen much faster than we think. 

So when the pain of this loss comes knocking again, it’s nothing more than a reminder it’s waiting to be let go. Don’t run from the  knock, don’t run from the fear of the pain. Sit with it. It’s seeking your attention for a reason, it wants to leave your emotional body. It’s seeking its send-off. If you get the courage to have a funeral for this old dream, if you hold for yourself a final ritual in which you allow yourself to say goodbye, then afterwards you can head in your black dress and your pearls to the brunch in someone’s large living room seeped in light, and everyone can get a little tipsy on mimosas and bring up only the best of times, and maybe some people will even laugh, laugh so hard they cry and then keep doing both, because both feels most fitting. Then the next day you don’t wake up and go to the funeral again,  because you’ve paid your respects and you’ve honored the loss. No, the next day, you start really living your life again. This is ceremony, ritual. This stuff is important. My friend who walked the bridge in the night in the midwest and let go of her lost love, dropped his name into the river? Well, he came back to her, but in the time in between she was able to let go and fully live her life. Who knows if living her life to the fullest brought him back- this is not about the other person, this is about ourselves. Whatever happened, performing the ritual meant letting go to make room for something better. We can all hold these ceremonies for ourselves and our “dead”. You can let go in many, many ways. Part with the dead inside you so you can move on without the dead weight- and the dead wait. The more you make confront and make peace with and part with the dead parts  of yourself- old dreams, old hurts, old assumptions, old ways- inside you, the more awake and alive you really are in the present. It’s a soul bath.

  

So last night, instead of doing what I always do, which is say "I should really let that go," "I’ve got to let that go," but never really doing it,  I stopped and held space and time to see it go. This wasn’t not painful. There was stuff I had not wanted to see- but it was no where near as bad as I had imagined all these years. But I stayed in the fire until it cooled. With a candle lit, a rose quartz on my chest and a reiki hand on my solar plexus, I held ceremony. It was waiting to say goodbye, it asked for my attention and I finally gave it to it. This thing had been waiting in the door way for years for me to let it go. I finally let it out, like a trapped bird who had been banging around inside me, desperate for a way out, dying to fly.

  

"Deep in our hearts we know that the best things said come last. People will talk for hours saying nothing much and then linger at the door with words that come with a rush from the heart. Doorways, it seems, are where the truth is told. We are all gathered at a doorway today. It’s the end of something and the beginning of something else." Alan Alda

  

  

 

MEDITATION

 

Chakra Balancing Meditations by Diane Hauschild

Root Chakra:

Place hands on pelvic area on Root Chakra

Affirmations: I will survive. / my needs will be met. / I am welcome and part of the earth. / I am comfortable on earth in the here and now. / I am grounded. / I belong. / I am unique there is no one exactly like me. / I am part of mother earth. / I am secure on mother earth. / I love being here on earth. / I recognize my duality of spirit & physical. / I am one with all.

(Grounding helps balance and centres your energies. Helps release fears of not being good enough. Helps you adapt to environment conditions.)

Sacral Chakra:

Place hands below waist on sacral chakra.

Affirmations: I trust my gut feelings and creativity. / I will treat others as i want to be treated. / I feel.  / I am happy to be me.

(Helps the reproductive organs stay healthy. Relieves the feeling of “I need to tell other people what to do” to control them. I understand all relationships i have serve a purpose for my soul’s growth. Opens channel to greater creativity. Builds self-confidence, confirming the choices we make. Deserve therefore i will recieve. I am not afraid to be. removes the need to judge others.)

Solar Plexus Chakra:

Place hands below rib cage on Solar Plexus

Affirmations: I accept myself as i am./ I trust myself. / I am balancing my emotions & my energies. / I am happy to be me. / I am I am I am. 

(Helps release fear/anxiety/frustration/anger and negative energy. Helps you centre yourself. Helps you to trust your gut feelings-instinct. Promotes ability to accept things as they are.)

Heart Chakra:

Place hands at heart centre

Affirmations: I love myself as i am. / I love all of me. / I love others and all of life unconditionally.

(Helps with lungs and breathing. Helps lungs breathe in life, helps open the heart to unconditional love for self and others. Helps increase capacity to love and creates self confidence. Promotes calmness. Concentration. Heart opens to forgiveness of self and others. Helps relieve tension/ guilt and feelings of negative responsibility. Helps with nervousness, calms the nerves. You can deal better with stress/ anger/ hostility and jealousy.) 

Throat Chakra:

Place your hands on your throat

Affirmations: I speak my truth and express myself. / I will support my thoughts, my words and my voice. / I have the free will to do so. / I will not gossip or hurt others with my words. 

(Helps with communication skills, speaking also helps with verbal and creative expression. Helps resist speaking negatively and gossiping. Awareness of when to speak and when not to speak. Reduces stress and helps you to relax. Creates stability and balance.)

Third Eye Chakra:

Place your hands over your eyes and forehead

Affirmations: I see myself as i am. / I know myself as i am. / I hear myself as i am. / I listen to myself. / I see things clearly. / I recognize my true self- my soul self.

(Helps with anything to do with seeing (expands vision) hearing and listening.. Relieves anxiety/fear/worry/depression/headaches/stress/migraines. Promotes focus/begins meditative flow/ helps with sleep cycle/ calms and relaxes. Creates a sense of wholeness.)

Crown Chakra:

Place your hands on top of your head

Affirmations: I fill my mind with only positive thoughts about myself/ my family/ friends and my life. / Good thoughts make good things happen. / I think clearly.

(Helps with headaches/sleeping/quiets the mind/balances the right and left side of the brain. Expands your awareness and opens your crown chakra to receive higher consciousness. Brings awareness to the spiritual.)

 
  

STARS

The heavens generously bless us with an earthy trine between Mars (energy), Jupiter (abundance), and Pluto (power). As in the energy ofyesterday’s forecast, the productivity in our life progresses tremendously. Efforts are rewarded. Goodness rains down upon us. Take action to seek out opportunities that are available to us now. Favorable chances for healing in our personal wellness, professional work, finances, and spiritual advancements. It is advised that if agreements, signing documents, or major purchases are on the agenda, to use caution with Mercury retrograde, so be sure to read the fine print carefully. Today’s Moon continues to travel bareback in Sagittarius. It is easy to do what comes most natural to us today, especially as emotions are peaked with optimism and eagerness. 

 

"It is your work in life that is the ultimate seduction." Pablo Picasso. 

Tarot guidance from Five of Wands rx, Temperance (interesting with the same cards as yesterday): Creatively adding the final touch.

 

MOON

 Phase: WANING 

 ”Moon of Retribution”

 Three and a half to seven days after the Full Moon. The Moon appears to be more than one-half but not fully illuminated by direct sunlight. The fraction of the Moon’s disk that is illuminated is decreasing.

Positive Attributes:  

This is the Moon of the Earth Mothers. Demeter, Ceres, Korte, Danu (Anu), and Bast. What work has been done is now gathered in and the crop offered as a sacrifice to the Mother who gave it to us in the first place. Time to harvest and time to begin renewal. A time to review endeavors and correct mistakes. Settle disputes and make amends.

Activities:  

A time to review endeavors and correct mistakes. Settle disputes and make amends. A time to start taking things apart. Addictions; Divorce; Stress; Unnecessary negativity; Bad or unwanted Habits; Decision making; 

Emotions; Protection; Unwanted influences; Unwanted situations; Healing, banishing what shouldn’t be there; Old ways of thinking and doing things. 

Goals: Start work on removing obstacles. Give thanks for what has been achieved. Relates to the Harvest of the Grown Plant.

Goals:   

The time of the waxing Moon is in many traditions concerned more with mundane outer matters, whereas the period of the waning Moon deals with subconscious enlightenment leading to the clarification of conscious values. The waxing Moon brings instinctual growth. The waning Moon brings a conscious process of creative release. [VIA WHITE GODDESS] 

WORDS
"There are powers far beyond us, plans far beyond what we could have ever thought of, visions far more vast than what we can ever see on our own with our own eyes, there are horizons long gone beyond our own horizons. This is courage- to throw away what is our own that is limited and to thrust ourselves into the hands of these higher powers- God and Destiny.To do this is to abide in the realm of the eternal, to walk in the path of the everlasting to follow in the footprints of God and demi-gods. The hardest part for man is the letting go. For some reason, he thinks himself big enough to know and to see what’s good for him. But in the letting go……..is found freedom. In the letting go…….. is found the flight!" 
 C JoyBell C
"The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that that situation is over, you cannot move forward."  Steve Mariboli
 
"If you want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate."  C JoyBell C
 
"If people refuse to look at you in a new light and they can only see you for what you were, only see you for the mistakes you’ve made, if they don’t realize that you are not your mistakes, then they have to go." Steve Mariboli
 
 
NOTABLE 
Ancient Roman Equirria
CELEBRATE YOUR INNER WARRIOR. EXPEL THE OLD, BRING IN THE NEW.  
In Ancient Roman times, today we would be celebrating Equirria, which were holy days with religious and military significance at either end of the new year celebrations for Mars. The Roman state placed great emphasis on celebrating the god of war - to support the army, and to boost public morale. Priests performed rites purifying the army. Celebrants held horse races on the Martius Campus (field of Mars), and drove a scapegoat out of the city of Rome, expelling the old and bringing in the new. 

Today’s Letter: The Cat in the Road and the Morning After

           
 
 
3.13.12 WHISPERS
Laurie Cabot. Wear Black. Cast a spell for the good of all. Drink apple juice.
DOITGIRL. this is just the beginning. allow the process.
Song of the Day; ”Everywhere I Go,” Lissie 

 Lissie - Everywhere I Go
DOITGIRL. The Cat in the Road. 

Last night I had dinner with my little blond cousin and her friends, we sat outside at a Mexican restaurant in breezeless sweater weather, we shared a gigantic plate of nachos and talked about individual awakenings and the universal waking happening now. “I can’t believe when other people say they’re not feeling it,” said my cousin’s friend, who’s on that part of the ride where the roller coaster seems too shaky and unsafe, and the highs are too highs the lows too low. We talked about those ugly scary parts, when too much consciousness rushes in at first and you’re pretty sure you’ve gone crazy. This part of the journey some call the Dark Night of the Soul, my reiki master calls it the Spiritual Trenches. This is where the hardest work is done. This is the part where you’re terrified of changing your whole life and your new path seems like an experiment that could go deadly wrong, and you’re wondering if you’ve made it all up. The old ways stop working at all. When you rely on old coping or defense mechanisms, and do things that work against your personal alignment, you get burned, badly. You keep telling yourself, “I’ve come too far to go back now. I’ve come too far to go back now,” but there are parts of you that still shake with uncertainty on the bridge from the old life the new. More on that later, but if you’re feeling this, please know you are not alone, and that I see you.

 

On my drive home around 11 I swerved to miss an animal lying in the road, I gasped in sadness when I saw it was a little black and white cat. I think I had seen this cat trying to cross this road before. I don’t know if she belonged to a person or just to nature. I swung the car back around and drove back, I wanted to make sure she wasn’t still alive, and if she was dead, to at least get her off the road so no one would hit her again. When I touched her, she was stiff, her mouth open, blood running out. There was no energy in the body. All the parts were there, but no Divine force. Last Fall in the Berkshires I was hiking Monument Mountain and I saw a dead mouse on the path. Perhaps it died right then, for I saw the spirit move from the mouse up into the air. From the middle of the road I picked the cat up and laid her in a ditch on the side of the road, and I held my hands over her and asked the Great Spirits to ensure her peace and safety in her soul’s journey. I could feel her around me in the air. When I got home the dogs rushed to the door, smelling death on my hands.

 

Since the full moon I’ve been tossing all night in bed, and last night I woke up a few times with her face, frozen, in my mind, the picture of death. But this morning in the backyard, the powerful play goes on. It is most certainly Spring, the world is more awake and alive than it has been in half a year, it is warm, almost hot, and the birds are here in droves, blue jays and robins chirping and flirting and flapping, butterflies vibrating around each other and buds that were long-held, incubating in the dark womb of the earth are appearing in orgasmic colors in the grass and on the trees. The black and white kitty will decompose back into this earth from which she nurtured herself and stalked with her soft padded feet, and eventually all of us will follow her back into Mother Earth. The roots her veins, the dirt her flesh, the trees her lungs. I am sorry this kitty died during springtime. Every death is a reminder of life, I am grateful for her reminder. I wish I could say something more beautiful for the cat, but the only thing I know to say is the aren’t we so lucky to be here. Here is the one thing my friend Kianna and I have been hearing when we seek our answers: “Self-love is the path. Forgive yourselves.” Please forgive yourself. Please. Awaken along with Mother Earth this Spring, Allow yourself the fullest life possible.

 

 

 

STARS

STARCANA HOROSCOPE. MARCH 13. Opportunities gravitate as fortunate Jupiter trines powerful Pluto, which will trine supportive Venus. With all three planets in the earth signs, manifestation is grounded and produced . This can be very good news with blessings, as well as healings of our money, reputation, finances, relationships, and our physical being. Luna also pulls herself free from the heavy Scorpio emotions, and rides into charismatic Sagittarius. Feeling happy and free, we’re aware of the potentials that exist as Moon trines unique Uranus, and self-seeking Mercury retrograde

"Seeing death as the end of life is like seeing the horizon as the end of the ocean."  David Searls. 

Tarot guidance from Temperance, Five of Wands rx: We’re pulling out the big guns. SUZI CAVALLO DRONZEK 

MOON
Waning Gibbous. 
The Waning moon is used for banishing and rejecting those things that influence us in a negative way. Negative emotions, diseases, ailments, and bad habits can all be let go and special spells for clearing negative energies from the self, home, ritual circle, tools and so on can be performed at this time. Simply remember that when you remove an energy, you want to fill the void with a more positive energy. So this is also a good time to consecrate the future with what you want it to be as you move forward. [PagansPath]


WORDS
The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know 
if you will risk 
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me
what planets are 
squaring your moon…
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you 
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.
It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes."
It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know 
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know
if you can be alone 
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments. 



MEDITATION
Shamanic Clearing & Healing Meditation. Shared humbly from Kalpulli Teocalli Ollin: A community of people who are affirming, reconnecting and remembering

the traditional ancestral methods in which people empower their own healing.

1. DAILY MEDITATION - VERY IMPORTANT TO CONNECT ONESELF AND THE PRESENCE OF LIGHT AND DIVINE LOVE DAILY 
It was recommended last year, but it is now vital. Daily meditation is the fuel of our body and soul. Do it simply: three phases, conscious breathing, body relaxation, the arrival of light. The simpler it is; the easier it will be incorporated in your daily routine.
2. CLEAR INTENT 
We cannot continue to live each day as we board a plane and tell the pilot, “take me anywhere you want”. We need a map. Every morning, write in your journal four things: the intention of the day, the intention of the month, the intention for the year, and the intention of a lifetime. Might change daily, but you see the “pattern” of the same intent. 
3. Journaling OF DREAMS 
Our dreams are guiding us in the direction of our spiritual growth and helping us evolve. They have always done this, but now it has become much more necessary to pay attention to what they say. Dream, practice recall, record it or if you need to process, share them with others. 
4. RADICAL DETACHMENT 
Old relationships and personalities of the past are showing up in our field. The purpose NOW is to close all loose ends, detached from that which reflects our old way of being. Release and say goodbye genuinely with farewell letters that include gratitude, forgiveness, and taking responsibility for letting go. You will find that they will ALSO receive a remarkable freeing energy. 
5. SOCIAL NETWORKS 
Meet with peers, with those who share this philosophy of life. The change will find us together. Participate in events, exhibitions, global meditations, forums … Stay tuned; be aware.  Attend courses and seminars. Generate sacred circles. Participate in ceremony, rituals, and talking circles
6. RITUAL TO LAND 
Mother Earth is evolving along with us. In fact, she is the initiator of this movement and the fundamental reason that we are turning toward a higher destiny. It is the ship that carries us through the cosmos. Let’s do rituals in the most simple and universal manner by leaving an offering of food and love to her and her creatures, recycling, conserving water, growing our own food, planting herbal gardens, offerings of ceremonial blessings.  
7. TIME IN THE WILD 
Feeling the sun, even on the terrace, even if it is raining … make contact with nature at every opportunity you have. Walk instead of taking a taxi, watch the signs of the wind, the billowy clouds, and sit in the grass, hg a tree. Restore and re-energize yourself from their vitality and purity. 
8. ART 
Express yourself creatively, even when you feel you have no artistic ability. Art is inherent to our spirit, but we have been conditioned to accept only certain creative ways. Paint, model, draw, sing, dance, act. Do it alone or with other people but let the soul speak in your own special “code” what art is. 
9. Hold on to YOUR DREAMS 
Every soul has a dream, and it is like the North Star: Guiding us!!. Find what makes you happy and keep that course. Permanently give up all the prejudices and limiting beliefs that tell you what is “possible and what is not possible.” When we reach the “enlighten moment”, you will not be truly AUTHENTIC if you have done ONLY what was expected of you. Find your PASSION Now. 
10. Karmic cleansing 
Our energy fields have been full of “caca” baggage that no longer serves our spiritual growth. In the past, maybe we would have taken years to understand and transmute the remains of karmic experiences. Today, the acceleration of this transformation, the higher vibration, and changes in our DNA has cleansed all the “ole stuff”. Any residuals can be cleaned up by chakra work, sound healing, energy work, reiki, ceremony, sacred lodges, yoga, and meditating. 
11. REST 
The higher vibration energies, the cosmic sun flares, the transition to a higher transformation result in you becoming fatigue. The physical material of our bodies is slow to adjust to the dynamics of consciousness. Protect yourself by getting enough rest, drinking more water, eating mindfully, slowing down, and being in the moment. If you can, take a nap every now and then, no matter what time of day.
12. SUPERIOR SERVICE 
We are being accompanied by spiritual entities of different colors and frequencies, but with the same great intention: to witness the wonderful moment when a species moves from one dimension to another (yeah! us!). Now is the time to help one another, to have loving connections, to give encouragement and inspiration, to be ONE with each other, and most of all being of “service” to all.
Remember … Practice, practice, practice! 
Many blessings : )
 

Today’s Letter: Is This Real?

dance

DOITGIRL
                                                 magic whispers. 3.9.12
power color. wear white.
laurie cabot. careful, your emotions could make you sad. buy flowers. 
doitgirl. ditch the chemicals, get intoxicated on the universe
song of the day. Pursuit of Happiness (cover by Lissie)
 
 

 DOITGIRL. “IS THIS REAL?”

It is so hard at first to unlearn your old life and your terrible ways of treating yourself. It’s hard to go against the grain of an entire society and make choices for yourself that no one else can understand. Sometimes I ask myself, and wonder if others think, that I might have made this whole spiritual journey up as an escape from “real life.” But then that begs the question, what is real, and what is normal? Is normal my old life of suffering and fear? Is normal the life I had that almost killed me, because I followed the rules and lived locked in a mind of fear and judgment? Have I had a psychotic break because I live by the laws of love and peace now? In my mind, I’ve gone sane. The old life was my fiction, this life is my truth.

Anyway, does it really matter? Who’s to say who’s making what up? If fear, war, and hate are real, I choose not to believe or live by them. Every day I vote for peace and love, and these are my beliefs. If this spiritual journey is not real, how come, since I have been on it, I have been so awake, healthy, and happy? How come my life is now so peaceful, when the “normal” one I lived was one car crash after another? If that’s normal,  never knowing myself, and in turn making choices that hurt myself and everyone around me, then I’m very blissful and happy to be strange.

Why do we care how others live their lives? When it comes down to it, when life screeches into perspective— when someone is in fear of losing their life, gets seriously ill or hurt, or passes away, do we ask, “I hope she lived a life based on mass society’s rules about reality?” Do we say, “I hope everyone accepted her and she fit in?” Or do we say, “I hope she was happy?”“I hope she heard the music and I hope she danced?”

When my mother was passing from this life to the next her last words to me were “Find the joy. You have to look for it, but it’s out there.” In my last words to her, I promised her I would. I tattooed this on my back and sought for joy in vain and in desperate, dangerous ways outside of myself for 14 years. [Despite the good intentions, I see the sad sentence I was setting myself up for, that  joy was always behind me, and I was always looking back for it instead of around me]. When I finally gave up on the rules that were killing me and took respite in myself alone, I found the universe, and then I found the joy.

You won’t have to worry about me. You might not recognize or understand all my choices, but I am happy. And that’s all I want you to be. I hear the music. I am dancing. I hope you find the version of life that makes the most sense to you and your heart, and I hope you give it  your best shot, I hope you live it to the fullest. I hear the music. Do you?

  

 

STARS

STARCANA HOROSCOPE with SUZI CAVALLO DRONZEKAlthough the Libra Moon can keep us serious and contained with the details of our life, we could feel torn between two directions this morning as Moon opposes rebellious Uranus and clever Mercury. Our resistance to bend may increase as we seek to gain control as Luna squares demanding Pluto by this afternoon. Balance while listening to our inner quietness is most beneficial to our well-being. Yesterday’s Full Moon in Virgo continues to vibrate powerfully, even tho her light is slowly decreasing. This energy encourages us to let go of unhealthy emotional attachments, so that our true self may shine.

 

 ”Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.” Leo Buscaglia. 

Tarot guidance from Wheel of Fortune, Hanged Man rx: Live and let die. SUZI CAVALLO DRONZEK

  



WORDS

"Real silence is explosive; it is not the dead state of mind that spiritual seekers think. This is volcanic in its nature; it’s bubbling all the time - the energy, the life -that is its quality." 
P.D. Ouspensky 

"Only one thing makes a dream impossible the fear of failure." 

Paulo Coehlo  

 ”You cannot know the meaning of your life until you are connected to the power that created you.” 

Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi

 

Today’s Letter: NO MATTER HOW LONELY YOU ARE

          DOITGIRL, No Matter How Lonely

chronicling one girl’s awakening. #kundalini, #reiki #magic #self love #yoga #consciousness #enlightenment. from sarah durham wilson: writer, journalist, editor, reiki master, yogini, seeker. 
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3.8.12 MAGIC WHISPERS.
power color. brown
laurie cabot.  Things may not be fair, look to your future. Don’t give up on your dreams.
doitgirl. ride the highest frequency. hydrate.
song of the day. "Fire Inside," Bob Seger
notable. solar flares, full moon, and Holi


Bob Seger - The Fire InsideBob Seger - The Fire Inside

DOITGIRL. I am getting ready to leave the south for that magic New England island again, and I am walking arond with the feelings of tying things up and saying goodbye. I am taking in the shape and lines of my father’s face and drinking in the grace and strength of my girlfriends. I am memorizing the winding roads lined by the divine Blue Ridge mountains and savoring the sounds I hear out in the country quiet. I love the moans of the cows in the pastures and the cries of the Canadian Geese as they fly over this open land. The calls of these geese are my favorite sounds in nature. Something in  me returns home every time I hear their calls. Stir that with the rustling wind and the wind chimes twinkling and I’m one happy earth goddess. Last night I heard those geese and I rushed to the window to look for them- but every time, for the last four months, I have missed them by a moment, and they fly over the house like phantoms I can only hear and never see. This morning, very early, I had Lisa’s favorite Mary Oliver poem “Why I Wake Early” in my head, and I was moved to walk. I met the morning wrapped in her soft creme sweater and electric pink leggings and walked down the road as the sun was still taking her seat in the sky, stretching her long and wispy pink and yellow fingers across its endless expanse. Lisa used to walk to the beach with her dog every morning. When you’re up that early it feels like you’re having a secret, silky and intimate affair the world while everyone else still sleeps. You can whisper secrets and she’ll whisper them back. Mary Oliver says to the dawn, “Hello you who made the morning, watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness.” This morning in Virginia the air felt like Lisa’s Rhode Island beach, soft and summery, and as Gracie and I rounded the bend we stopped at an empty cow pasture, which was absolutely filled with Canadian Geese. A field full of them, as if they ruled the land. [But lucky creatures, they are of the earth, the water, and the sky]. I didn’t finally get to see one goose, I got to see one hundred. Gracie laid down in the  grass as I stood on the old wooden fence and watched them.
Again, I said “Thank you.” 
Wrapped in Lisa’s sweater like a hug, I do not have to look hard to find her. My late aunt was the woman who showed me, by example, that anyone can change her life. Had I not seen her do it, I am not sure I could have. I read some of my old journals this morning while I had coffee on my bed. I see that I used to “live” like I was in a coffin, everything was black and there was no freedom and no possibility and no future. Certainly, no present. Alive, but not living. Boxed up and good as dead. It was like my reiki healer once said to me when I lived in Santa Monica, “You live by the ocean, yet you never let yourself go in.” Sometimes when I am taking this life for granted I close my eyes and hold my brath and pretend I’m buried again and forever. That this life is over and I am confined to a dark wooden box underground. I hold this thought til it hurts, then I open my eyes, and I can’t believe where I am. I can’t believe the trees, I can’t believe the sky. I can’t believe the touch of Gracie’s fur. Truly, this is a magical kingdom. Awake, alive, and glittering. If you are buried, I pray for you to rise out of your grave. I pray that you will forgive yourself and that you will free yourself and that you will let yourself live. I pray that you will allow yourself the ocean and the stars. Today is the full moon, and if we all  were - and we are—ancient shamans and goddesses and mystics and good witches we would gather around our great bonfire and toss in all our love and dreams and all the pain too, from the past. Offer it all up to the Gods, and we would dance, and sing, and hold hands, and hold each other. Tonight in my heart I’ll hold a bonfire under the Full Moon for each of you. Give me your love and your dreams, give me your pain and your grief. Let’s toss it all in. Let’s watch it all burn. Let’s dance and love like we’re on fire.
 
Wild Geese
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

 Mary Oliver
STARS. [Suzi Cavallo Dronzek]

COSMIC DIRT. 3.8.12 Today’s cosmic event is a hearty Full Moon, which is felt in the earthy element of Virgo. The Full Moon explodes from the inside out, releasing what we’ve been holding onto,while occasionally displaying it for all to see. Sometime’s, there’s just no holding back during the Full Moon, which is obvious when people claim how crazy it gets around the Full Moon time. There is more mischief and arguments during this time, policemen deal with more drama during this time, and hospitals get much more busier. We can wonder why someone just switches from one mood to another during the Full Moon, when actually the true self is being ignited to come forth. Even pregnancies are more prone to give birth during the Full Moon, as this is a time to release and shine.

As Luna opposes the Sun during this time, it is a time when distance and separation can happen, because we are reaching deep within our soul to let ourselves out. There is so much emotion that is squeezed out during this time, which can literally flood out everyone around us.. and have them running fast for the hills. In one sense this can be good energy, because we are able to display the true power that we are made of, but with the wrong approach, we can quickly intimidate and challenge others. Take a look at your natal chart to see which house the Full Moon is beaming into…. for here is where answers are being delivered to you. In Virgo, highlighted areas may be in our work, finances, health, fitness, well-being, pets, our service to others, and how much we give of ourselves. Here is where we need complete order and  seek perfection.

The Full Moon will be in my twelfth house, trine my natal Saturn in Capricorn (business). Little by little I have been making some internal changes with my business, but have come across some road blocks, which have been totally out of my hands (twelfth house). Some days it feels I am coasting ahead, and then something will happen to send me two steps back. I came to terms with facing fears and karma (twelfth house) in business when Saturn transit my twelfth, but at the same time I was able to dig and find my roots (Virgo) to keep me steady. So while I did complain in the past week with mishaps in paperwork, voicemails, and emails with custom service communications (which I can no doubt thank Mercury’s shadow for), I managed to eventually get everything in order - with patience and persistence. With a lot of fire in my chart, patience isn’t always my best attribute, so it’s a big deal for me when I contain a large chunk of it LOL. Anyway, for those who haven’t caught glimpse yet, my business name, transactions, and so on will be: Starcana, Inc (whoohoo!).

On one level, we need to use that which challenges us, as a lesson to improve our own journey. Virgo is the Harvester, so while we can have a good year of crops, one bad apple may seem to spoil the mood. We can choose to study (Mercury, Virgo’s ruler) the result, to assess and improve our work - or from the shadow side, Virgo can instead, entice us to whine, panic, worry, and complain. However things may turn out, it will be good hygiene for the soul… just remember to learn something from it, and to find kindness in some way.

By evening, Luna will enter Libra, which will give us this feeling of balance with a need to intellectualize what we are experiencing. This energy is favorable for connecting with others, friendly conversations, research, sharing, flirting, and making peace. Find the peace within your soul, and allow the Full Moon to release your fears, so that you may ground with your own root system. 

'Successful people do not get down when faced with difficulty, they seize the opportunity to step back, regroup, rethink and innovate!'. 

  

Tarot guidance from Nine of Swords, Tower rx: Anxiety can increase as we are aware that things are about to change.

 


MOON.
Full. "Tonight’s Full Moon in Virgo completes a cycle of life experience designed to engender greater levels of care for self and for others through various forms of work that require methodology and precision. It’s energy promotes a peak awareness to health concerns and a gravitation toward holistic healing. There will be radical adjustments among those who’s lives have fallen out of tolerance specific to the areas of health, hygiene, employment, social services, and personal disorder. This Full Moon will sync with leaps in progress for those who have been aligned with purity, excellence, and service; obstacles will be overcome. Life will repeat for those who have not yet learned to excel within the domain of Virgo. The diligent cant expect reward as their good works have been recorded. Ad bonum salutem!" Starseed Astrology



WORDS.
"My beloved child, break your heart no longer.
Each time you judge yourself, you break your own heart. 
You stop feeding on the love which is the wellspring of your vitality. 
The time has come. Your time. To celebrate. And to see the goodness that you are. 
You my child, are divine. You are pure. You are sublimely free. 
You are God in disguise. And you are always perfectly safe.
Do not fight the dark. Just turn on the light.
Let go, And breathe into the goodness that you are.”
-Swami Kripalvanandaji (Bapuji)
 
"I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance; to live so that which comes to me as seed goes to the next as blossom and that which comes to me as blossom, goes on as fruit."

Dawna Markova 
When you know who you are;
when your mission is clear and you
burn with the inner fire of unbreakable will;
no cold can touch your heart;
no deluge can dampen your purpose.
You know that you are alive.

Chief Seattle
 

  

SPIRIT ANIMALS. 

WILD GEESE SYMBOLISM. 

The animal symbolism of the goose hasn’t got its full honor. 

Geese annually migrate to warmer climates during the winter. Should a goose become injured during this trek, another goose will leave the migrating flock to stay with its fallen comrade. The goose will stay with the injured until he has recovered or until its final breath. Nothing silly about that.

Indeed, this kind of valor puts the symbolism of the goose in a far different light. Here are some attributes of the goose:

  • Communication
  • Determination
  • Fellowship
  • Teamwork
  • Confidence
  • Protection
  • Bravery
  • Loyalty

Geese are incredibly gifted navigators and instinctively know the way across the long haul to warmer climates. They forge ahead with confidence and bravery.

Further, geese have intricate methods of communication - not only do they sense when their brethren are in trouble, they also work as a team to communicate warnings, as well as messages of prime landing sites.

Geese are also fiercely protective of their young - often presenting an impressive thrashing display to would-be predators. These scare tactics often work to protect goslings from attack.

Those who have the goose as their animal totem need not worry if they are silly or lazy. This is far from the truth. In actuality, those who are kind, loyal, and brave-hearted attract geese as their totem. Those with the goose totem are the clear communicators, true-blue defenders and compassionate keepers of the community.

Lessons we all can learn from our totem geese include:

  • Remember your roots - don’t forget the people who helped you along the way
  • Follow your gut - rely on intuition and instinct in order to get where you need to be
  • Communicate your needs to others - no one can help you if you don’t speak out
  • Protect that which is most valuable, but make sure you have your priorities straight (meaning, be sure you’re protecting that which is worth protecting)

VIA ANIMAL SYMBOLISM  
 



ANCIENT RITUAL 

HOLI. Around the world, Hindus are celebrating Holi, the Festival of Colors. Holi is a popular springtime celebrations observed on the last full moon of the lunar month. Participants traditionally throw bright, vibrant powders at friends and strangers alike, celebrating the arrival of Spring, commemorating Krishna’s pranks, and allowing everyone a momentary freedom - a chance to drop their inhibitions and simply play and dance. Gathered in this collection are images of this year’s Holi festival from across India and several other countries.   Holi festival has an ancient origin and celebrates the triumph of ‘good’ over ‘bad’. The colorful festival bridges the social gap and renews sweet relationships. On this day, people hug and wish each other. 

 
 

Today’s Letter: I Applaud You

    warrior

DOITGIRL, ROOTS

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3.6.12 Magic Whispers
power color. Brown. 
laurie cabot. Ground yourself, find a majick stone and place it near your bed.
doitgirl. we are already feeling the full moon.
song of the day. “Ladies and Gentlemen We are Floating in Space,” Spiritualized. 
Spiritualized-Ladies and Gentlemen We are Floating in Space
Spiritualized-Ladies and Gentlemen We are Floating in Space
DOITGIRL. Knotted Roots. 
I know I told you yesterday how I haven’t given a damn about my hair for a long time, and that’s true, but this moon being so close to full is making me see myself clearly, too clearly, and I felt messy, too messy. So I started from the outside, and I went to the hair salon today and as soon as I got there the stylist went into ER mode, if she could have laid me on a stretcher and hooked my hair up to an oxygen tank, she would have. For her I was in critical condition, this was a cut/color/gloss/layer emergency and I let her do her thing, as long as I could shut my eyes and not think. But I’m no good at that. So with her fingers in my roots I started thinking about my psychological, spiritual roots at home here in Virginia. I came home in November- well to the outskirts of home, to this farmhouse twenty minutes away- to re- root. At Kripalu my muladhara (root chakra) was crying out for some stability and home made sense. I see now why I was called home, and I am grateful for these last four or five months. I have done what I set out to accomplish, to be by my best friend’s side during her happy time of engagement, to get to know my father again as an adult, to picnic in the places of my defeats. My best friend and I do lovely dinners. My father and I do these great country runs. I sat at my mother’s grave on the cold lonely hillside in January. 
But this is not my life anymore. The more I think about roots, the more I think about how deeply complicated they are. They are knotted, and gnarly, rock hard and endlessly deep, twisted and intertwined forever with the roots of others. Mine are deeply, deeply twisted. Last night I felt I almost drowned in my past, it is so rich and deep here, and at times it is so incredibly dark. I was a child as these events unfolded, I had no concept of choice, but I do now. But sometimes it feels like so long ago and another life, sometimes it doesn’t feel like anytime’s gone by at all. 
Waiting at the salon I was reading a magazine and it was an interview with Demi Moore, right around the time her husband left her after he cheated. Right before she went to the hospital for her broken heart. She was asked what her biggest fear was and she said abandoment, and she said being unloved. I’m a sucker for honest people, and I was drawn to her for the first time. She said she feared being at the end of her life and finding out she was simply unlovable. She was weak and broken but you know what she said next, after all that she called herself a warrior. Crying comes easily to me and that made me want to cry. A woman who lost the battle, still calling herself a soldier. That’s true heart. I thought it was so beautiful, because anyone can call themselves a warrior when the waters are smooth. But someone who can say that still, while entering the cave they’ve feared to enter their whole life, that’s so strong. This is our greatest test. Not in the eyes of society maybe, for how dare we reveal our wounds and our fears so openly, but in my eyes, this is it. “The cave we fear to enter holds the treasure we seek.” (joseph campbell) Facing your biggest fears is the key to life. I search hard for the right composition of strength and vulnerability. I am too vulnerable in some areas, too defended and built up  in others. We all have thorns that cause us to limp when we should be dancing, those thorns are the same reasons we say no to life when we should be saying yes. The March Full Moon is low and almost full, she’ll be all the way lit come Thursday. They say this “Storm Moon” makes us a little crazier than usual, it stirs us up inside, and I feel it. I look so polished and smooth on the outside today, but inside the darkness is surfacing,and fighting it is fruitless. The moon is our greatest mirror, when she is full, in turn she reveals us in full.  Not just the pretty stuff, the edited stuff, or your best side. The warts. The unhealed wounds, the self-inflicted bruises. No photoshop. Last night in yoga class I was asked to invite every one inside me to the party— not just my strengths, like my my bliss, my laughter, my love and compassion, these things I proudly display. No the invite list was much longer— she asked we also invite everything inside we try to hide, stifle, fight or avoid. For me, that means inviting my gluttony, my ego, my impatience, my darkness, and my reactiveness. Oh, and who are we kidding, my mother issues and my own fear of abandoment. I barely had to look around for them, this moon has them in the spotlight. Begrudingly, embarrassed and ashamed of them, I invited them to the party. This is natural to fear/shun/hate these things inside of us. This is how we are bred, and this is what we have to unlearn. Everyday we are each different and every day the mission for these letters is different, but I largely write on a mission of each of our own self-acceptance and self love— that means not just the pretty days. My teacher Shakti would call this “radical self-acceptance.” I think it’s pretty radical to love yourself at your worst, I think it’s pretty radical to still call yourself a warrior when you’ve been beat. 
 It’s acceptance. It’s letting it all in the door. The more I tell my ugly truths NO, don’t come in, stay out in the cold dark, the harder they will bang at the door, and eventually, they will get in with a force much greater than had I let them in, and it will blow my house down. And by the time they come in with force, they won’t be in the mood to dance. So instead I invite them in now, when I can. Come in, darkness, dance with my light. Come in pain of my mother, come in pain of my broken heart. My joy and my sorrow are bedmates. Had I not gone through hell, I wouldn’t know heaven. The more you study war the more you know peace. My roots show the knots and scars, the pain of my past. I see them. I acknowledge them. I try my best, to accept them, eventually I hope to love them. The more I ignore the root causes of my painful choices, the more I will make them. I refuse to be afraid of who I am or what’s happened to me or the choices I have made anymore. The more I understand these things, the less they frighten me. My roots, my choices, and my sources of pain, are like any child, any person, any animal, the more I love them, the less they cry out. 
What have you left out in the night, what is rattling the windows and banging on the doors while you sleep? I suggest you let them in. What shadows follow you as you walk?  I suggest you turn around and face them. This is a loving, forgiving, compassionate Universe, of that I am sure. If this Universe is compassionate forgiving and loving, then so are you. Start inside. Re-commit to yourself again and again. It’s time. The curtain is drawn and the full moon spotlight is upon us. Spirit/Universe/Source, is in the audience and she’s waiting to see what we’re made of. I don’t want any more freebies, I don’t want to delude myself that this is still some sort of rehearsal. I know that life is happening now, and it is my choice to rise to the occasion or not. I am ready, awake, and up to this challenge to love myself in full. I hope you join me. I applaud you and your courage, whether you’re at the top of the mountain or entering the dark cave, it doesn’t matter. Whether the wound is fresh or healing, I applaud you. Keep going. I applaud you and your work. I applaud you and your journey. I applaud you and your pain. Keep moving through the fire. 
 
Love, DIG.  



STARS. 
Divined by Suzi Cavallo Dronzek. Wishes may really come true as sweet Venus sextiles magical Neptune. ‘What we want’ and ‘what we can have’ blend together nicely, like peanut butter melting nicely with chocolate ~ creating a hypnotic delight. As push comes to shove, something seems to finally budge, allowing a flow for opportunities to appear as Moon sextiles Saturn retrograde. This can be very supportive news in our relationships (personal and professional) as Saturn transits Libra, while her ruler Venus is in Taurus. Perhaps the heart is ready to forgive, or we have a new understanding. If we see an open window, go for it. If we work it, we can heal it. Utilize today’s Leo Moon to charm others with the courage to face shadows. Dazzle with light. Later, Luna will enter analytical Virgo, encouraging us to study the logic of what happened today. Instead, relax. Count your blessings, reap the rewards, and gives thanks. 
"It does not matter whether you are a theist or atheist, what matters is sincerity, forgiveness, and compassion". His Holiness the Dalai Lama. 
Tarot guidance from Ace of Cups rx, Ace of Wands rx: Uncertain of our potential, we take two steps back.
 
 
MOON.
The Full Moon is Thursday, March 8 at 2:41 AM Mountain Standard Time. This full moon is a perfect opportunity to make a plan and commit to taking some action towards manifesting. Start with a fresh plan even if it has elements of a plan from the past. What is it that you want right now at this moment for yourself? How are you going to get there? You do not need to know all the steps, just the first one. Beware of the tendency to look towards others to do it for you. There is no power in that. This is a time to make your own bid for power. Spirit is certainly listening and if your bid is from the heart and not from ego, and if you are ready for it, it will happen sooner than you can imagine. Remember to practice patience as all things come in their own time. Take action but don’t micromanage! LENA FROM THE POWER PATH
 
MORE ABOUT THIS FULL MOON. 
March Full Moon Correspondences

Moon sign: Virgo

Names: Storm Moon, Crow Moon, Lenten Moon, Seed Moon, Strawberry Moon, Windy Moon, Bud Moon, Little Frog Moon

Colors: Green, Light purple, Yellow 

Gemstones: Bloodstone, aquamarine, jasper, blue topaz, amethyst 

Animals: Cougar, Crow, Lion, Lamb

Mythic Spirits: Storm Spirits, Air and Water spirits, Mer-people (mermaids). 

Trees: Honeysuckle, Dogwood, Alder

Element: Water

Goddesses: Isis, Artemis, The Morrighan, Cybele, Hecate, Astarte, Holda, Luna, Ostara, Athena, Minerva 

Gods: Mars, Ares, The Green Man 

Herbs: High John, Pennyroyal, Wood Betony, Apple Blossoms, Cherry Blossoms, Irish Moss, Violet, Willow, Daffodil 

Power Flow: energy breaks into the open; growing, prospering, exploring. New beginnings; balance of Light and Dark. Breaking illusions. Seeing the truth in your life however much it may hurt.
 
WORDS.
It is better to light candles
than to curse the darkness.
It is better to plant seeds
than to accuse the earth.
The world needs all of our power
and love and energy,
and each of us has something that we can give.
The trick is to find it and use it,
to find it and give it away.
So there will always be more.
We can be lights for each other,
and through each other’s illumination
we will see the way.
Each of us is a seed,
a silent promise,
and it is always spring.

Merle Shain
When Buddha was on his death bed he noticed his young disciple Anan was weeping.
'Why are you weeping, Anan?' he asked.
'Because the light of the world is about to be extinguished and we will be in darkness.'
The Buddha summoned up all his remaining energy and spoke what were to be his final words on earth:
'Anan, Anan, be a light unto yourself.'

Buddhist Scripture 

Today’s Letter: Let it Leave

dragon             DOITGIRL, LET IT LEAVE


LEAP DAY WHISPERS
power color. gray
laurie cabot. wear gray. talk a lot. say what you want to say. 
DIG whisper. no one can take anything away from you without you letting them
Notable. First Quarter Moon 
Song of the Day: ”Heading for the Light,” Traveling Wilburys

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Heading for the Light by Traveling Wilburys
Heading for the Light by Traveling Wilburys


More and more I realize that whenever something seemingly “bad” happens, the Universe is bulldozing, or simply paving the way (whichever way it’s in the mood for, it’s always working in new and mysterious ways) for something much, much, much better to come along. Recently when something “bad” happens it means I’m being triggered to learn, love, or to pause and be patient. Whether I lose something or someone, this holds true. Trusting in this, that’s it’s for the best with your highest self in mind and best path in mind— makes this so much easier, with so much less suffering. “Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form.” Rumi 
Sometimes a bridge is blown out so I have to take a totally new path, and I find out later the bridge was leading to a dead end, and the path lead me to an unforseen opporutnity. It brings me to a place or person I might have been too afraid to take a chance on, had I been left to my own devices. Sometimes something leaves me- painfully if I chose to let it be so— so that I am allowed the exact amount of grieving and processing and wisening-up time before the next, much better opportunity shows up. I see this bigtime with break ups- my friends’ and my own. And always, the harder I hold on the harder I fall and the harder it hurts. A person who was about to treat me terribly “disappears” from my life or reveals their astonishngly dark true colors right before I really let them in or give them way too much. Something I was going to settle for out of hopelessness walks away from me, and at the time it seems like “their” decision. Time is not linear and we are most certainly on an astral journey, I very much feel guided, and not alone. Most nights I can’t believe every car isn’t pulled over on the side of the road just to watch the holy spectacle of the sunset. Sometimes I can’t believe we all just aren’t standing with our heads thrown back staring slack-jawed at the stars. Sometimes I can’t believe we’re not all shivering in total awe at every moment of this fleeting miraculous, magical, impossibly possible and interconnected experience of life. It is still just the beginning of the Year of the Dragon but there is rapid change in the air andall the advice is ringing true: To stay on the ride you’re going to need to strap yourself in tight, prepare for and stay open to change, signs, and lessons, and not fight the flow.
WORDS. 
"Every time you don’t follow your inner guidance, you feel a loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deadness."
 "When I’m trusting and being myself as fully as possible, everything in my life reflects this by falling into place easily, often miraculously."
  
MOON MAGIC. 
Moon Phase. First quarter moon. Waxing moon, on the journey to brightness and full light. Work to attract what you want. However you treat your body, the effects will be magnified. Treat it poorly, you’ll feel the effects more so than usual, but sames goes if you treat if well. Your powers of attraction are increasing. Negative thoughts will be worse than usual if you allow them, positive thoughts will be that much more beneficial. 

We should watch where we are going as Luna squares naive Neptune and self-centered Sun. While it’s wonderful to utilize our personalities and talents to rise and connect with others, we need to be careful of not stepping ahead of others, to get to the front of the line. Slow down for a minute or two, to take a breath and know that ‘we got this one’. Trying too hard could cause clumsiness. Today’s Gemini Moon is favorable for small trips and errands, communications, phone calls, letter writing, mingling, and networking. Throw your seeds into the air so that they may scatter, then let the universe do the rest. Happy birthday Leap Year babies! 
"I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge - myth is more potent than history - dreams are more powerful than facts - hope always triumphs over experience - laughter is the cure for grief - love is stronger than death" Robert Fulghum. 
Tarot Guidance from Page of Wands, Two of Swords rx: It may seem right, but is it?
MAGIC. 
What types of magic work best for your sign?

Aries: Protection, competition, sticking up for yourself, asking for what you want, banishing, the head, the planet Mars.

Taurus: Money, luxury, love, fertility, art, music, singing, anything you want to last a while, the throat, the planet Venus.

Gemini: Writing, communication, siblings, short-distance travel, computer stuff, commerce, wit, the arms and hands, the planet Mercury.

Cancer: Nurture, fertility/motherhood, protection, the Goddess, empathic work, kitchen magick, the breasts, the Moon.

Leo: Loyalty, success, energy/vitality, drama and the theater, the God, self-confidence, courage, the heart, the Sun.

Virgo: Health, details, cleanliness, writing, being practical, getting to the heart of something, domestic animals and pets, the stomach and bowels, the planet Mercury.

Libra: Art, music, relationships, justice, balance, decisions, partnerships, the skin, kidneys and adrenals, the planet Venus.

Scorpio: Sex, subconscious, death, the underworld, power, control, obsession, anything “occult” as in “hidden,” high magick, the genitals, the planet Pluto.

Sagittarius: Religion, philosophy, humor, luck, gambling, higher education, foreign or long-distance travel, foreign people and languages, sports, animals, the thighs, the planet Jupiter.

Capricorn: Career, success, work, time, tradition, money from work, the past, assertiveness and drive, the knees, hair and bones, the planet Saturn.

Aquarius: Invention, innovation, inspiration, detachment, freedom and independence, humanitarian causes, the ankles, calves, and circulation, the planet Uranus.

Pisces: Dream and psychic work, shamanism, alcohol and drugs, compassion, intuition, imagination, the feet, the planet Neptune.

Today’s Newsletter: Let it Die

knock

ALLOW THE WINDS                       
 2.23.12 whispers. 
power color. red
laurie cabot.  light a red candle. your dreams could come true
DIG whisper. without the death there is no rebirth. let it die.
Song of the Day. Cat Stevens, “The Wind”
 
The Wind - Cat StevensThe Wind - Cat Stevens 



DOITGIRL. have a funeral for your past. 
Last night a friend portended of a death, but she didnt know for whom. she just said she had a feeling about it, but more importantly a message. the person who was passing wanted it known that they felt calm and peaceful about their imminent journey. this morning the turkey vultures were crying out over the fields in the back of the farmhouse, where I’m sitting now, in on the porch in the sun with the dogs. a deer was struck on the side of the road over night and the large black birds are are feasting on its remains, a few are flying like winged deathly shadows in high loops over the house, some sit like reapers on the still bare winter trees. they are just doing their jobs, these feathered undertakers. they have come to take what no longer serves. when we understand that we are everything and eternal, then in life there can be no loss, only change of form. sometimes we stall our own evolutions and transformations by clinging to the dead parts of ourselves, by hanging out in the dark, closed past long after last call. I hurt my leg the other day,  and I am witnessing the rapid, miraculous healing in stages. We are not so aware of the process of our spiritual and emotional wounds, we never “see” the healing so we over protect and over defend for an eternity, if we are not careful.  
here is what i want you to know. that you are healed. you are ready. your place in the sun is waiting. 
today is the day to offer up the dead parts of yourself. the vultures are here, waiting with their hefty bags, to take all your crap that no longer serves you, to take it back to the underworld. they want your dead old stories about yourself and they want your ancient wounds. are you fearless enough to offer them your past, so you might fully rise into your present? what are you finally ready to junk? don’t be an emotional hoarder with your old stories. spring is coming. your beautiful hands and heart need to be open and ready to receive all the new sprouting from mother earth. your eyes looking at the past won’t see the vibrant colors and opportunity of the new. they will only see decay. you will miss the show.
the winds of change are always blowing. when we stand scared and stiff we get knocked over and we fall down. we are taught over and over not to attach to the past and finally one day we learn, and we begin to dance through change. Keep everything open: hands, eyes, heart, mind. Stay loosey goosey flexible and open, you’ll ride the wind. you’ll get carried to the miracle, you’ll get a front row seat. 
How to Let Go: 7 Affirmations for Practicing the Law of Detachment by Deepak Chopra 
  1. I consciously commit to flexibility and detachment.
  2. I allow myself and those around me the freedom to be themselves, without imposing rigid ideas of right and wrong.
  3. I live my life in a state of engaged detachment.
  4. I release the need to judge or criticize.
  5. I express myself honestly while releasing any need to impose my beliefs on other people.
  6. Whenever I notice that I am becoming emotionally attached to a point of view, I take a deep breath and come back to a more centered place.
  7. I embrace detachment by choosing to be free from the good and bad opinions of others.
Stars. 
Cosmic Dirt via Suzi Cavallo Dronzek. To propose an idea, or voice an opinion today, consider the approach as Mercury opposes Mars retrograde. Our communication skills and/or behavior could be misinterpreted if we act on assumptions, crossing boundaries to generously help ourselves. Logic will confront the ego when we aren’t listening to understand, encouraging disagreements. Emotions will become ignited as Luna enters brave warrior Aries this evening. We’re more passionate and excitable under this fiery Moon (which will last for the next few days). If we see or experience injustice, war will become necessary - to have peace. If we desire to be in control, remember to control our own ego by stuffing it safely into our pocket or handbag. 
'A man from hell is not afraid of hot ashes'. Dorothy Gilman
Tarot Guidance from The Devil rx, Three of Cups rx: We’re not afraid to go back for seconds.
Moon. 
 waxing crescent phase. 
This cycle of the Moon refers to the period of time from the New Moon to the Full Moon. The energy from this cycle should be used in “drawing” that which you want towards you. It’s a good time to begin new projects and expand any current efforts. It’s also a time to craft workings that concern love, harmony, balance, and peace, as well as protection and healing. viaHerbalmusings

 Words

The Journey  

One day you finally knew

what you had to do, and began,

though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice —
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do —
determined to save
the only life you could save. 

- Mary Oliver

Ancient Lore. 

Old gypsy remedies for a headache

 Rub your forehead with a stone and then cover the stone with soil.

 The ache is said to be absorbed by the soil.

 Alternatively, you can rub a headache away by rubbing a horseshoe on your forehead.

 (A piece of iron is said to work just as well.)

 Yet another method is to lie down and place a quartz crystal on your pillow. If you can’t lie down, try holding a quartz to your head for a few minutes to relieve the discomfort.

 Rosemary oil dabbed on the temples and third eye will end most headaches.

VIA gypsymagicspells

 

Today’s Newsletter: Keep It Young

failure 
 DO IT GIRL, keep it young

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KXT Live Sessions, Brandi Carlile, KXT Live Sessions, Brandi Carlile, “Keep Your Heart Young”

2.22.12 whispers. 
power color. Ice Blue. 
laurie cabot. Write a spell and burn it. Light a green candle.
DIG. if passion had a time and place, this would be the right place. 
Song of the Day. "Keep Your Heart Young," Brandi Carlisle
DOITGIRL. Let yourself off the hook. You had to do it the wrong way to recognize the right way when it came along. Here’s a tip, it always feels better if you’re doing something or saying something because it’s your authentic, loving self-expression without expectation of anyone else’s response or approval. When you’re making choices from a place of love, you’re safe, and so is everyone around you.  I feel best when nearly nothing I do is for a desired effect or outcome, I feel best when I am working from a place of self love, love for others, and a love of life. When I do things for other’s reactions and desired outcomes I will always be disappointed, sometimes even resentful. But I set that trap, and I create those expectations. I can choose not to next time. The first way to end subconscious thought is to recognize it, and I’m learning everyday.  I’m working on it. Sometimes I’m more aligned with love than others. Some days I have to constantly ask myself “where is this coming from?” — whether it’s during a thought I’m having, whether it’s before an action I take, or before I say something that feels misaligned with Source. Stopping and asking yourself— “where is this coming from?” or ‘I’m not doing this in hopes of “getting” anything am I?’— taking that pause, is a good way to make sure you’re not being reactionary or planting expectation traps for your self or others. Expectations, attachments, these are Loves greatest foes. Being in a place of alignment with love and your highest self protects you and cares for others. But being constantly aligned is hard— the moon isn’t always full and she doesn’t become full overnight.Just like the moon, we have phases, and we’ve got to allow them, whether we’re feeling our fullest, darkest, weakest, lightest— allow yourself the same growth and shifts, small deaths and re-births, as Mother Moon. It’s natural. Remember good things take time. Allow yourself the room for growth and lessons like a child, because that’s what you are, a child of the Universe who never has to grow “old,” who’s always learning big and beautiful lessons. Allow the process of your own growth, the lessons of your own mistakes, and know you are supported. 
STARS. [daily cosmic dirt suzi cavallo dronzek]. Strong sensations begin to awaken deep within us as Moon sextiles Pluto this morning, while Luna’s conjunction with Mercury in Pisces allows us to understand. Today’s vibrations are charmed, so it may be suggested to keep a pen and dream journal handy to log feelings and experiences. Hidden messages with deeper insight is available for those who seek it… especially as the power of intent is energized from yesterday’s New Moon. Key words should be ‘Let go, to move forward’. Let go of reason, excuses, and defeat ~ and move mountains tomorrow. Emotions will heighten later as Moon opposes Mars rx. Self-control is encouraged to maintain inner balance. 
'Become a person who refuses to be offended by anyone, anything, or any set of circumstances'. 
Tarot Guidance from King of Wands, The Lovers rx: Failure does not become you.
[rob brezsny weekly free will astrology ] 
PISCES [Feb 19-Mar 20]  Gawker.com notes that American politician John McCain tends to repeat himself — a lot. Researchers discovered that he has told the same joke at least 27 times in five years. (And it’s such a feeble joke, it’s not worth re-telling.) In the coming week, Pisces, pease please please avoid any behavior that resembles this repetitive, habit-bound laziness. You simply cannot afford to be imitating who you used to be and what you used to do. As much as possible, reinvent yourself from scratch — and have maximum fun doing it.  
FIND YOURS 
Words. 
"Nobody chooses dysfunction, conflict, pain. Nobody chooses insanity. This happens because there is not enough presence in you to dissolve the past…You are not fully here. You have not quite woken up yet. In the meantime, the conditioned mind is running your life….if you are one of those people who have an issue with their parents, if you still harbour resentment about something they did or did not do, then you still believe they had a choice—that they could have acted differently. It always looks as if people had a choice, but that is an illusion. As long as your mind with its conditioned patterns runs your life, as long as you are your mind, what choice do you have? None. You are not even there. The mind-identified state is severely dysfunctional. It is a form of insanity. Almost everyone is suffering from this illness in varying degrees. The moment you realise this, there can be no more resentment. How can you resent someone’s illness? The only appropriate response is compassion.” --Eckhart Tolle (The Power of the NOW)
 

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