laurie cabot magic whisper. Wednesday, July 18: Wear Black. Everything seems uphill. Think faerie and fly.
doitgirl whisper. to live is to fly
song. “To Live is to Fly” Townes Van Zandt
notable. New Moon in Cancer.
Townes Van Zandt To Live is to Fly
Thanks to Mercury in Retrograde I wrote — then lost— this whole post on how my suffering was all optional, and how deep inside I knew it. I knew it these last two weeks even after I continued to choose to suffer. I kept choosing Suffer Road, Wrong Road, Old Paradigm Road and thinking something would be different (the defiinition of insanity) or that I would end up in a different place. [I Know This Old Road I Go Down. To think someone else or something outside of myself- their love or approval— could save me, I forget my own worth, my own love, my own power, I toss it away for the love or approval from another. And sometimes I’m lazy on my path, like, “will you do my work for me?” Or sometimes, a lot, I sacrifice myself, in this very unworthy way. ] That’s the problem anyway, i was thinking about all of it too much, stuck in my buzzing head, which was on fire with old, separate, defensive, finger-pointed -out not -pointed -in angry fiery energy. I’m happy to say this is a Cooling New Moon. I’m happy to say you will be supported as you move that buzzing spitting bubbling enerrgy down to your God-like heart. Just like Mother Earth your heart is the great transformer. Move all the lies & confusion from the head into the wise and ancient heart. I wrote about how as soon as I start to feel sadness about a sitatuation there is now a voice inside me that says “we can choose to trust this rupture and go gracefully” we don’t have to go all the way back down into the mud with this one. We don’t “deserve” to hurt, we are just programmed to hurt. These ruptures and separations and being faced with all our old behavior patterns are all part of the transit. But then I punish myself through the old motions of suffering anyway. But we don’t have to lay down in mud and suffer anymore, the gates to freedom are unlocked and not only that, they’re swung wide open. And I feel so deeply torn open when I am suffering- like a soul autoospy- a soul torn between two worlds, and that’s accurate, I believe, my soul is torn between Death and Life. It’s always the choice, just like Victim or Hero. The past is choosing death. The present is choosing life. Acceptance of our reality is our transformation. Chooseing between the illusion/lies and what Is. To choose not to suffer, to choose to tap on the heart and breathe and stay present and trust, to move through the fear and not run is to choose life, to say yes to constant evolution, for that’s what chanege is and Life is. So last night I got my heart whispered on a back porch in the breeze and I felt all these ghosts leaving my heart, walking out of it, single file. And then I drove home and they continued to walk out of my heart, little flumes of smoke and dust, clearing out and taking their gunk with them. And I drove home past an electric pink sunset and I went home and I sat down and I meditated. I have not given myself the time or attention to do this in weeks. I have been caught in the buzzing in my head, the drama, the story, the illusion, like banging my fists on the walls of my imagined prison. And last night was, even if five minutes, a highly educational meditation, I just went straight into the vortex. And I saw things I needed to see and I was grateful, and I was leaving I heard “Just Become Her Already,” and it was like someone reached a hand through my chest to grab my heart when I heard that because of course I Knew Exactly What They Meant.
Just Be Her Already. Let your Higher Self Out. Accept that this is all happening. That these messages of love are real and that you don’t have to suffer anymore and you dnt have to wear the old hats and clothes and behaviors of your old self. You can BE HER NOW, YOU can BE THAT WOMAN YOU BELIVE THAT YOU ARE. Belief is the most powerful tool we have as humans, belief transforms. You are your highest self. You are her now. You dont have to wait any longer to let your God self your Angel Heart out of its cage. There is no time to waste there never was. And now there is a thunderstorm rushing through the northeast tonight and its has cooled the air and it is flushing out the pain storms we’ve created these past two weeks and it is carrying it all away. You can stand in your truth while the winds howl. You are your highest self. Stop with the illusions. One of the biggest questions to ask yourself right now is What Do You Want. I for one have been tossing out the romantic dream of the partner and the child because it’s easy to say, not that I dont long for it— I am a starseed and I have always longed for earthly things, with my nose pressed against the glass of this life. But more than the romantic dream, because yes yes of course I want the man and the child on the water, I am not worried about that, that will all come, I am made of love and I am always attracting love, but no the BIGGER DREAMS. The SOUL DREAMS. What does that mean to you?
I stirred up a lot of hearts when I talked about my pain in my break up, about that week I tried so desperately to revive the corpse of my biggest relationship, but I wanted to tell you, as I told someone the other day, that that pain, the kind of pain that swoops in and pulverizes, not the kind we choose— had that pain not happened, my heart would not have cracked wide open. [“The Wound is Where the Light Comes In,” Rumi] Now I am In My Heart and I Come from My Heart. It needed to get cracked wide open like an ancient mummy’s tomb, hardended from lifetimes of pain and sorrow. But here we are in this new paradigm with all our power, awareness, and choice. I am here to free myself. I am here to heal my wounds and heal my ancestors wounds. I am the Keeper of My Eternal Heart.
Where do I live? If I had no address, as many people
do not, I could nevertheless say that I lived in the
same town as the lilies of the field, and the still
Spring, and all through the neighborhood now there are
strong men tending flowers.
Beauty without purpose is beauty without virtue. But
all beautiful things, inherently, have this function -
to excite the viewers toward sublime thought. Glory
to the world, that good teacher.
Among the swans there is none called the least, or
I believe in kindness. Also in mischief. Also in
singing, especially when singing is not necessarily
As for the body, it is solid and strong and curious
and full of detail; it wants to polish itself; it
wants to love another body; it is the only vessel in
the world that can hold, in a a mix of power and
sweetness: words, song, gesture, passion, ideas,
ingenuity, devotion, merriment, vanity, and virtue.
Keep some room in your heart for the unimaginable.
— Mary Oliver
As Jupiter quincunx Pluto rx this morning, we can find ourselves struggling with issues between the heart and the truth. With Jupiter’s recent shift into Gemini, honesty would be a breath of fresh air, but inner conflict rises when it comes to sacrificing our comfort zone. And to stimulate movement with change in direction, Mars will oppose rebellious Uranus retrograde tonight. This particular energy is known for bizarre and unexpected happenings that invites intrigue, while in the same breath, causes major resistance. Anything can happen under this fiery ball of energy, so it may be safe for us to expect that minds will flip flop, which can cause last minute changes. We can experience the continuance of the storm, starting with
last night’s Mars/Pluto rx storm, in order to create a brilliant version of reality.
Sure, we all have our own goals, but to connect, we must ALL be willing to meet each other halfway. This is explosive energy that is in the air, which can fuel us straight ahead, at top speed. Powerful vibrations can move us beyond current obstacles, creating new positive directions. If used improperly, we can overreact from high tension, causing separations, that lead us onto our own separate paths. Emotions can feel incredibly challenged under this delicate Cancer Moon, which strengthens our passion to flow with the current, flowing further than we ever imagined. What direction are you willing to fight for today? ”He who can burn with water, and wash with fire, makes a heaven out of earth and a precious earth out of heaven.” Porta Dei Cieli. Tarot insight: You can’t control love.
Goddess Information for the NEW MOON.
“Moon of Rest and Beginnings”
Location: moon is 0 - 45 degrees ahead of the Sun It is in alignment, directly between the earth and the sun, therefore hidden. The New Moon is the only Time the eclipse of the sun can be seen.
Day of, to three and a half days later. The Moon’s un-illuminated side is facing the Earth. The Moon is not visible (except during a solar eclipse).
A soothing time of rest and planning for new beginnings; new growth; love, the beginning of or renewing of; bringing things in; regeneration; give thanks. This is a time of new beginnings and new undertakings. It can be a starting point for kicking that bad habit, or simply beginning a project. Put ideas in motion, become engaged, make long term relationship plans. The waxing Moon is a time of spontaneous and instinctual action. This is a time when efforts will grow visible. Transitions may seem to be accepted more calmly than other phases. A time for hair cuts to promote growth, medical treatments or getting your moneys worth from that facial!!
Time to set new goals and review old ones for both the long and short term. Relates to the planting of the seeds.
SOULFUL & ASTROLOGICAL NEW MOON UPDATES from CATHY PAGANO.
About The Sign of Cancer
The zodiac sign of Cancer is the Cosmic Womb, Mother of all, the place of gestation and inner growth. The constellation of Cancer is a nursery of galaxies. The creativity of Cancer is not limited to physical birth, however; the seeds Cancer gestates are creative seeds, the forms diverse and individual. Cancer is associated with the waters of life, and its creativity lies in all aspects of life - biological, artistic, imaginative, practical, and mystical. Cancer is our creative matrix: Cancer contains the powers of creation and destruction, life and death.
The power of Cancer lies in the Moon, in its ability to give form and shape to the seeds of life. While the Sun symbolizes Consciousness, the Moon symbolizes the Unconscious, both our unconscious behavior patterns as well as the magical cauldron of the Collective Unconscious. The Moon’s light comes and goes, imaging the lunar consciousness of Feminine Spirit’s mystery and potential. The Moon’s energy is related to our emotions, our intuitions and our need to nurture. Like the tenacious Crab (watch out for her claws!), which is the symbol for Cancer, we tend to form strong emotional attachments to the things we create.
Cancer can give rise to positive mother-love, the much-needed bond a child or a project needs to thrive; giving support to the child’s development, talents and goals. But like the playful, shifting moonlight, pure light can turn to darkness if we hold on too long. The mother needs to let go at the right time for her child to mature, or the child gets stuck in the negative Mother complex - the dark, devouring Mother who is never satisfied. The Moon teaches us the rhythms of attachment and release, of ebb and flow. The waters of the Earth, and of our bodies, dance to the rhythm of the Moon.
Cancer New Moon
We know that a new Moon begins a new cycle of energy each month. Every year, the Cancer new Moon offers us an opportunity to renew our emotional body. And since the Moon is the ruler of Cancer, it makes this new Moon renewal doubly important. When we understand our unconscious motivations, we can work with our feelings and choose our actions. When we continue to ignore our emotions and instincts, our old behaviors deaden us, the inner ‘well’ runs dry and we’re stuck going round and round the same place, the same issues, the same feelings. When we don’t acknowledge and take care of our emotional body, it’s not as easy to activate new energy each month. In the first instance, we are being empowered by the positive mother-complex. In the second, we are caught in the negative-mother complex. This new Moon wants us to embody our feelings and learn to work with them. Then on the following new Moons we can get on to new business.
Cancer is an action-oriented water sign, picking up not only on our own feelings, but the feelings of people around us. Cancer pushes us to do something about those feelings, helping us stay creative, fluid and mobile, adapting to the situation. Cancer symbolizes the Mother, and it is Mom who nurtures our original emotional body. Moms have to go with the flow and be attuned to our child’s needs and emotions, and when a person has strong Cancer influences in their chart, they too develop the ‘mom antenna’ that lets them know exactly what’s going on beneath the surface. The trick with Cancer is to know when to do something about it and when to hold back and give silent support.
When we accept the ‘positive mother’ we actually like ourselves and our values, especially if they contribute to the whole community. We don’t compare ourselves to some cultural stereotype of who we should be, and we certainly don’t give more value to other people’s opinions than to our own original thoughts and ideas.
We learn about who we are by what we value - truth, honesty, integrity, beauty, grace, kindness, compassion. Walt Whitman’s advice is pertinent now, as we work on the desperately needed transitions our society has to make. Each of us, working together, can create a new way of living on our great Mother, the Earth. But we have to have values that we’re willing to stand up for. Cancer urges us believe in ourselves, trust ourselves and work to create a better life for all of us.
The Sabian symbol for the Sun and Moon at 27* Cancer is: A violent storm in a canyon filled with expensive homes. This symbol refers to a confrontation between our social norms and Nature. This kind of intense energy can destroy superficial, materialistic world-views which are out of alignment with Nature. And it reminds us that as we face the karmic crisis of a depleted environment and a soul-less society, we have to change our values - or rather, begin to live by those values we say we believe in. Our expensive houses and comfortable way of life will do us no good unless we work with Nature, and our own human nature, not against her.
This Cancer new Moon is challenged by Saturn in Libra, asking us to take others into consideration when we decide what we need and what we value. Which relationships are nurturing to you? Which relationships aren’t? This Cancer new Moon is a great time to meditate and be alone with yourself. First learn to mother yourself, because that’s how we learn to know what we need. Once we understand our own emotional needs, we can tune into others without projecting our needs onto them. And like a great mom, we can actually listen to their emotional bodies and understand just what kind of help and support they need.
Other Astrological Influences
Venus at 16* Gemini: A woman activist in an emotional speech dramatizing her cause. This symbol speaks to the passion we feel about any deep experience of life. We naturally want to share it. On this new Moon, Venus has moved back to the degree where she visibly joined the Sun on June 5th. Her energy will help us discover what it is we love and value. What we’re passionate about. Passion wants to be shared.
Venus, Jupiter, Uranus and Mercury play together, generating interesting and innovative ideas to plant and nurture. Both Uranus and Mercury just went retrograde, taking you deep within for answers. Those new ideas will help us deal creatively with the Uranus/Pluto square.
Mars steps in to become part of the Pluto/Uranus square at the new Moon. These three strong energies are clashing and so they can represent that ‘violent storm’ in the new Moon’s sabian symbol. It’s a good time to be aware of what’s going on around you.
The Sabian symbol for Mars at 9*Libra is: Three ‘old masters’ hanging on a wall of a special room in an art gallery. This symbol refers to’ the need to return to the source during a confused search for new value in a chaotic society.’ (Dane Rudhyar: An Astrological Mandala) This symbol speaks to the need to identity oneself with one’s archetypal essence - which Uranus in Aries is also trying to wake us up to. We need to go back to the patterns of life which our culture has ignored to our detriment. So step into your archetypal ‘master’ and learn to act as if you’re the hero/ine of your own life.
Uranus is still at 9*Aries: A crystal gazer. And Pluto is at 8*Capricorn: An angel carrying a harp. All good indications that we can proceed in a positive manner, despite the intensity of energies being generated. But for a positive outcome to any situation, you need to be aware of your feelings, your instincts and your values.
Mars in Libra seeks balance, but with Pluto in Capricorn challenging it and Uranus in Aries activating it, we all need to remember to breathe. Mars and Pluto have similar energies; both deal with will, power and passion (again!). Mars deals with more personal desires while Pluto speaks to evolutionary imperatives. Both can be ruthless and domineering, while Uranus can add the spark that sets the fire. So watch what you say and do and become a peaceful warrior with everyone you meet. Thankfully, Mars and Venus are in a good relationship, so think (both planets are in air signs) positive thoughts in the midst of stress and act on those peaceful, passionate beliefs with all the charm and graciousness you can muster.